all right, that’s enough, that was finally it @!@!@!

because of them I don’t have liberty 

                                                                                       to walk head up with my regular cowboy strut; 

                                                                         because of them I have to walk like a damn hunchback, 

                                                                                                                       the way they made me feel.  

i am flashing some of these names below if something happens to me to point out where the official investigation, if any, should immediately go - even if it only smells of foul-play. these leads then should be of prompt interest thereof for the authorities to pursue. most of them belong to some unknown to me montenegrin power-grid with strong belgrade ties whereto also belongs the art dealer gallery owner also an avid sportsman who threatened to kill the last time i wrote what he did to me, and now he does it again; while mr. v. milosevic is spitting his ass off, the art guy, as i was doing some important business, tried to distract me sniffing his nose intentionally into my direction while obviously trying to embarrass and embarrass me in front of an important person for both of us - mr. nikola kusovac. he damn well knows my ways, and this i assume is a total brownout up serbia's ass. for i am the good guy, world!!!! /this passage was produced with the little help of oreos™/

it is muito easier to go after individual targets and unprotected game. if comparing my life and mandela's life, his adversaries left him an option, something to look for after 27 yrs spent in prison.
my would-be enemies in america left me no option as they ruined my family without a chance for repair. in this regard, apartheid guys were much better for mandela than american angels were for me in general. i am perfectly unable to understand why it was done to me. do not think about this, just honestly answer - true or not true?
 

i have got an aposteriori feeling that 20 agents of serbian secret service are working on my case with rotating schedules and a goal of applying pressure or messing my life on daily basis and they are just waiting for me to come out for 15 minutes as i usually do every day because i have to and then all hell breaks lose for the day. different people are trying to make my life really miserable in serbia. if that was not so, if these were the regular serbian citizens that i am encountering, those that are spitting at me esp. after my neighbor and self-proclaimed cia agent as well as serbian politician vojkan milosevic had started it all, and sending me all those looks of hatred then i think this entire nation is completely crazed out. when i finally enter the nearby maxi store there are either some alexandra or similar being who spills out some acid whose vapor makes eyes burn in those aisles where i am supposed to pass through, or some milica with long pinokio nose whose only fun is to point price scanner at me because she must have heard it really bothers me. being on constant look out stresses me out for every passerby could be a possible attacker like it happened previously when i was attacked from behind in the streetcar by two young men. this year i was attacked almost in front of my home in plain daylight and that attacker made me invalid for life - my speech is often impaired. then i get calls from the secret service agent who has been pretending to be my friend for years offering me nazi memorabilia although he damn well knows i am not collecting that bullshit. i think this is just done to demonize me and make public believe i have deserved their final blow. the way this situation is unfolding, i am almost positive that someone in the government wants to kill me. i believe their plan is to have a cover up for that since it is better for the rest of serbs to have a nice sleep when they believe that someone that secret service has killed or died an unexpected death could have "deserved" it. although with lies they can say whatever they want and make public opinion stir in their way all the way.

like i said, i am never gonna start living it up in serbia but there is nowhere else i could go.

thus i am not gonna bother anymore to save the world – i am going to follow the policy save your own ass which means getting out of the house the least amount of times possible and avoid serbian people in the long, long arches all the time, every day.

i hereby renounce any pointless deed on my part - any responsibility for anything that happens anywhere to anyone and pronounce that the theater doors are open…. hope shall see soon what everybody will get by God. spare the innocent and grant roles of what they deserved to the rest. 
last minute, 12/2/13; belgrade, serbia is the four million people city.
it is simply unbelievable how many of these freaking motherfucking monster nuts are spitting following the example of
their countryman mr v. milosevic. they all remind me of a guy who almost killed me while beating me this year. never found out who it was, as i assume his ass is protected by the police and government.
their crazy behavior gives me the power to keep on writing.
and writing like me equals to a death-wish, but i'd rather choose liberty of writing freely than having to put up with their provoking bullshit in cowardly silence.
they are now succeeding in demoralizing me but i hope God and Weather are going to be on my side whenever the time comes
selah!!!!

THE LAST WARNING!

SERBIAN MOSES AND SERBIAN AARON or HOW TO STOP A CAR WITH NO BRAKES

The simple reason why I am writing this is – I want to live. The scales of God’s vengeance and anger are tipping. I am worried that something really terrible does not happen to those who were on my watch when things started happening to me BECAUSE WHAT SOME SERBS are doing just an’t right. I am a just man and my blood boils in my veins when I witness something that is extremely unjust.

Remember when Jews did not want to listen to Moses – God ordered Moses to slay those who did not want to listen.

There are two voices that Serbs are listening. When I go to one place I immediately want to continue writing here because things that are happening to me there are simple terrible and it is impossible to keep the vivid horror untold. There is absolutely no reason for anyone out there to disturb my life to such a point – like they keep on doing. I have been the victim so far and if anyone was to ask for justice – it was me. Then I go to another public place (shop, bus, streets) and everything seems fine but even there with the 'good Serbs' I feel there is a tension in the air - there is no trust, relaxation and respect - and the scales of justice are tipping. In other words, some Serbs are listening to Moses and other to Aaron. And I am afraid that George W Bush and William Clinton are in great jeopardy because of them. If anything happens to these two, it is the Serbian fault, I have warned you.

Universal Justice is out there waiting for their moves and the things just an’t right!!!!! Calm the hell down Serbia or go to Hell!!!!!

here's what ultra successful serbian sportsman Marko Jaric said about the Serbian people in the current issue of Esquire magazine (Serbian Edition, December 2013):

"hating all those that an't like you, those that are different because they are simply different is not humane, it is catastrophic. and it is exactly what is promoted in serbia as the principle of all principles. this is how serbianhood is measured. with all of that, we are the worst when we need to help each other." 
here there is more, Jaric basicaly says i cannot hate kobe bryant because he is different character than I am - in other words, serbia   means no respect, that's the place where you get no respect as a human being and i totally agree, there is no respect for human life in here:

if he who is so successful says so, what am i to add to it. he has means to get away, and i don't; left at the mercy of those that are the earthly gods full of spite and furious anger, vengeance and hatred for me. for God's sake i still have no clue what did i do to them to deserve all this but i know i live in deadly fear.
here is what happens if you start doing things the way they do not like, this is the statement of former secret service deputy director, zoran stijovic, who lives in fear for speaking out as they terrorized his family out of vengeance:

in the same way they have beaten me this year that i have developed constant headaches, pains and speech difficulties, they made me an invalid too!!!!!
i live in fear, i live in serbia. i want the world to know that. i will never ever have a piece of mind after these days i spent in this country. being silent about it just makes you blow out from fear and i do not want to blow out from fear. more and more, they have been ratcheting up pressure day after day for nearly ten years. kgb, italian and russian mafia mean shit in comparison to serbs and deterrent methods they are running

refusing to be terrorized by terror

i am presenting herewith an example of molestation that is regularly happening to me on daily basis. it can be described as moderate to severe depending on what physical damage was done to me. truly it is not a laughing matter. like i said due to the fact that there exists a universal justice, i am terrified that something really bad is going to happen to those who were on the watch when unfortunate decision was made to separate me from my family in usa and send me to serbia in the general turmoil following 9-11-2001. i prefer usa life style to serbia but i will never return there because i totally do not appreciate what they did to me....that's where i got no respect whatsoever, and i went there thinking it is the only place on earth where i could earn respect. furthermore, what serbian masses are doing to me now can only be described as pure horror!

this evening around 19:00 as i was only looking books at street vendors point in 1300 kaplara str., in downtown belgrade, right of knez mihajlova str.
all of a sudden i noticed red laser light pointed at me and on the ground around me coming from the windows of academic house on the corner - marked with red arrow on the photo. then i realized that it had been pointed at me and my eyes for several minutes while students were cheering "that's him, get him" from the windows above. i did not realize about whom they were excited with noise and laughs until i saw the red laser spot. i could say that at least several individuals were involved. they enjoyed harming me, hearing all their laughs and cries of joy, but when i started filming they disappeared. if there're inquiries, i am sure that someone will talk about it. aca "seljak" the bookseller is the witness - i asked him and he confirmed he saw it, and perhaps other bookinists too as well. i am afraid that something terrible is going to happen to those who allowed this to happen because i did not deserve this sort of terror let alone pressure. i present here only less than 1% of what is going on around town on daily basis per se.

later i developed an eye pain, burns and floaters as a result of this. this what happened tonight - 20th of november 2013 - was the proof that some serbs are doing it on purpose and that they want to harm me really bad. they totally do not care for harm they are doing to other human being as blinding someone is the ultimate harm.  
november 21st 2013: went by the same location this evening only to find out that aca "seljak" did not want to speak to me, he was obviously intimidated by the government who gave him a street space to sell books. it appears to me this is the wild west, serbia. 
the town buses were full this evening and since many teenagers and more middle-aged men looked like they were willing to fight me, i decided to walk home and avoid public transportation. luckily it was not too cold. i dream not of the successful life right now, to me great success is to achieve one undisturbed trolley ride from point A to point B. most people do not even think that way, but nobody is bothering them at any case. the serbs have been bothering me for years now even though i am always on my best behavior around here. they always get away scot-free and it - for one - boggles my mind, and - two - i honestly do not know what these characters want from me. the damage has been done. my eyes still hurt, i have blurred vision and floaters, it could be that the government guys were organizing something like what philological faculty students did yesterday but from a distance - from their spooky vehicles. here are some photos i took last night - here is the spot where students enter that academy i talked about....
 

nobody likes to live in fear

in Serbia, the only popular mainstream band is beogradski sindikat – a serbistan copycat version of black american ghetto rappers and culture. i bet in England such a band cannot be mainstream. combine that with drug dealing, aggression, primitivism, and soccer hooliganism and that is why i am okay with serbian demise in Davis Cup this year since a kid in Czech republic can go to school, preserve its optimism and become a scientist. in serbia, you cannot grow optimism, you have to develop a survival strategy. after 500 years of islam spread by the sword, there is now a ghetto culture on every street corner, all you notice are ghetto hoods, serbs almost identify with african slaves and lyrics invoking violence and radical ideas of communism, and that’s why me, who unfortunately celebrated hooligans in my music over 20 years ago when i was stupid – cannot end a bus ride without fearing for life. the love of christ still has to enter serbia in its magnifying glory. how can i add to and benefit this society when i spend the rest of the day or week recuperating from molestations? they molest me out of pure boredom and because they are allowed to. even without tens of thousands of them retards getting in my way i would not be able to do my thing, so fuck ‘em. i mean nobody was able to fall in love with me even when these mofos were not breathing down my neck. on top of it, i went through so many stresses in the public that i wonder how am i still alive?! honestly, this nation killed Dada Vujasinovic, what can a free mind expect here?! one extraordinary knight like Novak Djokovic cannot carry the entire country on his shoulders. same with Milos Obilic who only sacrificed himself but the battle was lost due to decadence at various ends. same everywhere though some people know the deal and they just want to have their chance to play like the czech republic. keep spreading optimism and preserve places where you can feel respect as a human being.

or....

or build a church to repay some old debts. in other words, let go off decadence, hatred, primitive aggressive thinking and start living

I BELIEVE IN UNIVERSAL JUSTICE.

i believe in universal justice and that is why i am deeply scared that something really bad may happen to those that were on the watch when things started happening to me, and when i was actually sent to Serbia. i cannot do anything about it. i am perfectly assured that Bill Clinton or George Bush did not personally request any sort of pressure against me, so i am deeply worried that something does not happen to them because it is impossible to stop serbs in their terror tracks.

for example, obviously, i cannot make one normal public transportation ride or the shortest shopping trip for groceries without an incident and without faces of doom trying to make me wish i had never exited home in the first place. it is highly unjustified public mobbing / lynching that i am sure something terrible must happen to someone for this because there is a universal justice involved. these people are beyond crazy and their public lynching and mobbing has been lasting since i got here in 2003, so i understand they (most likely, their secret services) must make up the reasons why they are doing this. i do not know these reasons, but i am sure that various stories are circulating among the population in order to justify this inhuman terror against me. i feel like no one ever has tried to do anything about it or to stop it, i feel as if they have been fueling the fire for all these years. as the result i have not made any progress in my life on the account of suffering from a group public mobbing and hatred – serbs are at home when they are approaching me in group, they are most courageous then. also, teenagers ages 13-24 are the most active in showing their aggression which often times is expressed through some action, like pointing of pocket lasers, walking at me, making noises, spitting, talking shit, producing hatred looks, etc. i feel i have no future here, no privacy, no backers, no chances, no real friends, but i am also deeply concerned about the future of those that were on the watch when it all began. to sum it up, there is nothing i can do but just warn ahead of time, before it is too late. i cannot change the wheels of destiny like i could not change my destiny to have a spouse and a family life like all normal men do. serbia does not allow me to be normal, hence my blog. furthermore, i am so attuned psychologically - or spiritually - that i never feel separated from those i love for example - betty a. fr. c.?.?. – but that does not help me. same with who i think i was in my past lives, it does not mean anything to these guys. they are all about primitive instincts and what i call a genuine evil, the evil that don't mind if its unjust doings backfire on them. 
currently, 15th of november 2013, they (who are they? serbian government? serb power?) are forcing very troublesome people onto me - some of them are most likely infected with hiv - aids and hepatitis but i feel as if they are given the green light to attack me very blatantly whenever they see me like it happened today on kalenic market when some gypsies particularly those that do not know me from earlier spat around as i was walking by. i heard rumor there that allegedly i sold two kilos of gold, and that i became very rich which is a very dangerous fat lie among those people with two grams of brain and big knives in their pocket. while the reality is that i do not even drive like the rest of this country but have to put up with unruly aggressive crowd in public transportation and various other places. like i said, where did the spitting thing primarily come from? the answer is from mr. v. milosevic, alleged cia agent and my neighbor who started this yukky trend, that's the first time i saw someone spitting like nuts. what did i do, to deserve all this? i get no respect whatsoever around this town and country. namely, yesterday i was in novi sad - and all of a sudden i realized that i am hated there more than in belgrade. it was like going through hell walking on novi sad streets, the most hatred coming from hooligans and hoodlums of all sorts. they did their best to ruin my day and make me feel isolated from the society in general. i am sure this injustice has to backfire somewhere sometimes, so for it

i hereby double confirm everything stated below

just stopped writing about maxi and marija but alas, maxi delhaize was not going to let me "quit the mob" that easy, they need a free publicity.

they know that writing of my complaints so far provided more business to them, more people were coming in to support them. 

i made mistake of going to that store today (nov. 11th, 2013) around 21:00 hrs, only to come out with blood red eyes as they sprayed some strong nasty chemical into the air again when i was passing by. during the last month and a half the management of that store brought in guys that look like trouble and chased all the good working girls away, it seems.

next thing i know, when i was at the register one of these new cashiers, blonde guy with dewy face or perhaps it is full of scars tried to point the laser into my eyes, but i was not packing articles in the bags as i anticipated what he was going to do – i waited until he finished scanning so he could not do what he was trying since i watched him. i double dared the motherfucker. now as i started packing bags he quickly proceeded to check out the next guy who was actually the guy that was cleaning the store minutes ago with potent chemicals (he sometimes act as an acting manager) so the dewy face got me with a laser as i could not pack all articles as quickly as he got hold of the laser thing. then he managed to point it into my eyes several times. i also noticed him and the cleaning guy exchanging secretive smiles and glances of pleasure. i repeat there is genuine evil all around me, it is so crazy that i do not know what to do. the only thing i know i’ll never go back to united states again, that’s for sure. i hate backstabbers more than i hate my current enemies. there is no one here who can teach serbs a lesson not even the orthodox church, many of them are wild beyond words. if i only knew what makes them hate me...

no catharsis possible

psy-warfare: you can clearly see one powerful disturbing light or laser pointed down towards my window (Nov. 10th, 2013) from the "jedinstvo" military highrise and the other one went off as soon as i started filming /i cannot trace its position on the video material/ which only means they are surveilling and harassing 24-7. are my eye problems the result of their actions, in other words is this only a psy-warfare - or the damage is physical here likewise like when they were beating me to almost death (fear, impaired speech, and unspecified damages left as consequences)? 
but, why - what did i do to them????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know there's something clearly wrong and evil with these guys but that's not an answer i wanted to get

my heart bleeds, i rarely come out – out of fear of being attacked by unknown serbian people in the streets.

yesterday on 05/11/2013 i was spat at in the eye by unknown attacker at bajloni farmers market. i carried a large bag and a backpack and for a minute i thought whether to hit him with all i had because God knows if he had AIDS or hepatitis and thus obtained opportunity to transmit it to me because his state SERBIA sponsored so. i did not, i had expensive irrecoverable belongings and i did not want to spend the rest of a day in jail. it all started with my neighbor mr. Milosevic who apparently on one of his television interviews told that he worked for CIA! the guy is obviously going berserk every time he sees me and goes into a spitting rage. never did anything bad to him, did not even know who he was, the only thing that comes into my mind is his daughter that perhaps had a crush on me, and falsely reported to him perhaps that i was looking at her while in fact i did not even want to say hi. to top it all off his staff called me yesterday to solicit voting for him on nearing serbian elections. i am writing this a day after, when all i really wanted to say just evaporated from my head.

it is crazy, now half of this effing city is spitting at my head level as they are passing by like crazy. not exactly directly at me as the piece of shit that did it yesterday but very close for comfort. is this a CIA thing? i am not sure, but it sounds like it. seems so easy to make these stupid nation do crazy things.

the other thing they do which they think bothers me – is pretending to cough as being sick in their heads. it just tells me how stupid they are, it does not bother me at all, but perhaps they were advised coughing like crazy is a secretive signal of belonging to some larger than life entity, like the masonic circle. that’s where i think forced coughing comes from.

in addition, those working in stores do not let the laser thing go. while anywhere in the world sellers do not point price laser scanners into eyes of their buyers, serbs are competing to do so.

i imagine an american would have told maxi (name of the store) cashier:

if the laser light touches me you are going to be reported for assault. do you understand me?

serb cashier: excuse me?!

it is a deliberate act on your behalf, i am going to report you to your management. /maxi store clerk keeps pointing laser price scanner into the american's eyes./

knock it off with the laser. if it gets into my eyes it is a direct harm you are be going out of work. /she finally knocks it all off with tremendous disappointment/

if we understand each other, then just put it away. discussion is over. you got what you deserve - you got my respect.

the way they are going about their behaving they are surely not getting any of my respect. local youth idols are criminals and hooligans, those that live fast and get big bucks for mafia range of crime. if they even have introduced art in school classes their education is totally ineffective as when i see these kids – the first thing that comes to my mind is they teach them how to be criminals and tumultuous hooligans or, if girls, then elite escorts and stars of porn industry not a decent, law abiding, honest citizens like i think when i see kids in austria and germany on television. not that they do not exist, they surely do, but the cloud of doom has hid everything else worth mentioning around here. clinging on hope but my fingers and mind start letting go

conclusion: everything being largely so, and coming from serbia, novak djokovic is extraterrestrial.  it is impossible that he belongs to the same sort of matter i am writing about.

wish if i could find me a girl so much more attractive than marija so she
could see me happy, so happy i could die. if i only knew if she ever shed a tear or thought about me? she's always been cold as ice. perhaps one day she'll come to me when she realize what life is about. without love, you can see in my art there is no hapiness,
it truly deserted me
Nov. 7th 2013: felt immediately sorry for coming out at dark -  harassment continued. ran into a blonde many times more exciting than Marija, she gave me a green light but for the past decade i've been running on empty. serbs drained a life out of me. their permanent prosecution has been beating the living shit out of me. what's more, it is not over - it only continues. just could not proceed, do not even know what i was supposed to do. but i am sure she wanted to make friends with me. if you want to know the definition of crazy just find out why serbia does this to me. naturally, i assume in order to have excuse for ruining someone's life serbs had to mount several reasons, although none of them was ever disclosed to me. i feel as if in the bigfoot land. the rules are so different than i what used to know when i taught law. i am sure this an't the same Earth no more as sure as the sun rises in the east
backlash: i scooped up courage to exit home once again this evening, november 7th, only to be confronted by numerous high school hooligans in the streetcar that ran to banjica. serbs should immediately close down not only soccer stadiums but public schools too, because what their system is creating are real monsters. these kids are real monsters. one of them was sawing off a piece of harmonica rubber that connects front and rear deck of the streetcar. they were pushing and shoving inclusive of girls too, and it is highly likeable to be hit and kicked or get stabbed at any moment. it is impossible to get away because this is probably one of the worst public transportations on the planet, always overcrowded with a lot of jerks ready to fight push and shove. you do not get what you paid for, forget comfort. if it was free, i would not recommend riding in serbia - just avoid this country at all costs. on top of it, other motherfuckers - including all walks of life - saw that i was afraid and they started adding fuel to fire by giving me evil looks and making noises with their keys as they often do. someone told me once do not touch the shit as the shit will stink, i devotedly follow that advice but it does not work in serbia. again, i do not know what is wrong with these serb people and what do they want from me? what is the point of this public degradation of human being?! i can rightly say that i am publicly lynched almost every day by unknown individuals. there are so many instances of it that it is impossible to count them all day after day. i am sure they are not only pure evil but crazy.
november 7th 2013, 11PM: currently two laser type beams / or very powerful disturbing lights / from the military housing highrise where resides mr aleksandar vasiljevic,  the former head of the Kontra-Obaveštajna Služba (KOS or Counter-Intelligence) are pointed into my window from two different stories. i am sure their plan is to kill me. there is no other explanation for all this interest in me and provocations and disturbances 24 - 7 without legit reasons and without end.

today, november 8th, I came across two strange looking individuals at kumodraska str. bus station, one of them had the eyes of the killer, both looked like junkies sponsored and coordinated by the government (secret services) to do the dirty work, as I approached they started singing a military farewell song as if invoking someone’s death, it made me have cold chills all over my body, with scornful looks they sang about someone who is going to be departing (die) pretty soon and it was obvious their evil chanting was directed at me. it was clear to me it was no joke. this level of harassment and threat is on much higher level than regular street thugs. it does an irreparable psychological damage, while the thug that beat me to almost death this year left me with permanent speech impairment. i did something in my life, published a book about a great artist Nicholas Petkovich. while i am sure someone has obtained tasks to make a direct negative impact on the quality of my life the rest of the nation is trying to discredit my sincere efforts to come out of this stalemate as they are doing everything to put me in the ballpark with public pests and criminals.

what breaks my heart is that serb intellectuals are getting falsely informed, some of them approve what goes on, they are taking side of the those that are sponsoring hooligans, detestable educational system, aggression, public lynching all performed quietly under the umbrella of pure evil. i do not believe any human has suffered so many stresses over such a long period of time.

here is the footage of the guy that was also harassed by the government 's secret services only in montenegro (until 2008, in federation with serbia)
he was also beaten to almost death even though he was a boxing champion, he was spat at, they made all sort of noises with various metals as a part of harassment, and finally had someone (a policeman) execute him after he had made his complaint-confession on youtube, just apparently he knew why it was going to happen - because of his political views:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PD36wymHTHY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QpmicujeCso&feature=youtu.be