imagine eating just croutons without onion soup – one more cumbersome day

this morning I got up with a bad headache plus I had a bothering dream wherein Jeffrey Tubin, half naked or just naked, was chasing me across the grassy field with a long stick screaming: “since you acted as such a jerk we are gonna screw you, we are going to object, you wanna play with us, fine, you’re done up now.” I barely got away. I think. on top of that I missed a book signing last night whereat a British actor John Challis who played one of the most adorable sitcom characters ever, Boycie in OFAH, came from England to Eastern European boondocks again ( he was here a few years back ) and boy do I feel pissed, for it would have been a nice new addition to my collection. [ slow and elongated ] w0o0w! other than that, my hope is to get out of here, settle down with a woman and do God’s will. wait a minute, where that came from?! another me?!

insanity – NO GOOD WISHES ARE GOING TO SAVE ME

i intercepted a rumor that i am going to be physically attacked - allegedly over my art - again (even worse off than in 2018) only this time by a terror squad.

this is not a joke. I am asking why do americans protect democracy and liberties only there where they an’t at stake? C’mon, let’s go off the fucking trail! Im not there, Im here!!!!!

out of lack of sense of security and peace in this evil country with humongous prey drive – SERBIA - which is disrupting the peace of mind in my head I have not slept half decently in at least 16 years.

as far as the event (the attack) in 2018 - the system over here is so prejudiced and biased that they accused me – the victim – even though I would have traded my injuries for the attacker’s anytime. in 2019 my new old [ i am reliving my serbian 'dream' ] fellow countrymen have been intense but, now, it is the next level time – the masterminds are crawling out of their holes again. apparently someone has been itching for the public response by portraying me as the ENEMY OF THE SERBIAN PEOPLE AND THIS [IS] NOT WITH ANY GOOD INTENTIONS WHATSOEVER. SO, WHO IS THE ONE? SOMEONE SHOULD KNOW, AT LEAST IN THE GOOD OLD USA.

waiting on history to come help me and contain the outbreak of evil in its purest form.

squib after squib

i am the serbian whore. many serbs use me to claim their greatness.
they reckon they are up here *** and I am down there ___
everybody's a gangsta in serbia. they just keep twisting the truth about me. the existence is fixed, my future is fixed.
don't think my rap sheet - they created - would allow me travel to other places anymore.
they totally messed up my social life and
entirely destroyed my sex drive. 

i think i will never be able to ejaculate again - it would be squib after squib after squib

m.v.

electronic harassment and individual targeting - gang stalking in serbia

next to ongoing Noise Campaign throughout the city of brotherly hate - in which unknown serbian citizens are performing harassment and targeting by purposely and unnecessarily banging various stuff to produce loud noises - i am also feeling the effects of electronic harassment right now – 1/10/20; 21 hrs - as there is a highly disturbing sound induced into my brain from a distance. it is definitely affecting and freaking me out in the same way a loud personal alarm would do – you can feel it inside your head and it is not loud at all [ it is not tinnitus] but the disturbing effects are the same if not greater. I looked through the window and out of many there is a highly interesting white bright light pointed into my home from the skyscraper nearby - at #139 – #141 vojvode stepe boulevard, belgrade, Serbia - where many government military counterintelligence agents live – I know this for a fact as the entire building was built for the military personnel and counterintelligence chief lives there as well. it may even be that Im not under active surveillance and that keeping me uncomfortable was not authorized by the higher echelons of the serbian government but some of them are perhaps acting independently abusing the high-tech government equipment. 

this is insane as when I move away from my computer room the effects are lesser although the frequencies or highly pitched sounds are still buzzing in my head making me stressed out beyond belief. i tried putting on a pair of Protector EH10 headband earmuffs to no avail. the way to describe it is - unbearable.

following up on yesterday’s post – deadly exposure in the city of brotherly hate

we will fuck your mother, we will fuck your mother, we will fuck your mother, we will fuck your mother

it seems to me that my agony will not end peacefully in Serbia.

unfortunately, since I am not the citizen of Switzerland, Germany or Israel, the only countries whose citizenship would bring an immediate stop to the ongoing harassment in Belgrade – I will continue to experience the worst until they manage to do me in like Franz Ferdinand, Qassem Soleimani, Moammar Qadhafi or any other hated political or military figure that has a loathsome presence in Serbia. i am hereby assessing my particular situation whereby I could only wipe my butt with the significance of any other passport - as something representing who Im while giving me some protection and immunity - including both the American and Russian in Serbia where the most favored vehicle is Volkswagen Golf - learned these alleged values by trial and error - serbs 'knów' where the money and power are at and these are the only things they respect. alas, in general, at ground level, Serbs fear, respect and prefer German over American values anytime, and all other proofs by singular examples are rosey smelling fallacies.
 
what happened today? 

as I took a brief walk naturally expecting the worst following my yesterday’s post, at about 14:45 hrs, I came by the house right by (or not far from) the Cardiff Auto Parts and Service at 69, kralja vladimira street (on the same side of street), belgrade, Serbia. as soon as I passed by, someone in the backyard started chanting and singing their mantra: we will fuck your mother, we will fuck your mother, we will fuck your mother, we will fuck your mother

i am not sure if there is an international law whereby you can sue one country over injustice and suffering when you are the victim of one society when naturally all legal actions on my part will be obstructed at local level - that is if I try anything myself - so i call out to all international lawyers, especially Jewish, and to them related detective agencies anywhere in the world - excluding those from Philadelphia Pennsylvania as well as suburban Philadelphia for personal reasons - who can help by making the case against this place which is disrupting my peace and life every day. i m not interested in any money and it will be a time consuming endeavor but there will be some bucks to be made for them - if there is a legal basis. please check and save me.