A COUNTRY THAT IS RAPING ME....

hopefully 

one of them will soon 

do what they all want 

just like gavrilo princip 

everything that happened in communist serbia – for example, terror at goli otok prisoners’ camp, unheard of in civilized world - and now in postcommunist Serbia mostly run by the children of communist revolutionaries - was approved of by USA. in general, people are advised to continue harassing me under the radar even though i am sure there are some foreigners that inquire what’s up with this blog?! most likely they are told i have been crazy and paranoid. they cannot find anything else, for the time being. i still have not started robbing serbian banks. while some secret service agents i know – names not revealed – are openly trying to involve me into drug dealing asking straightforward questions in that regard. in addition, for example, tonight on karadjordjeva bus/streetcar stop i was pointed finger at as one lady was telling another “look that’s that crazy guy overthere!” then the other replied “is that really him?” and the latter confirmed “yes that’s him”. perhaps it is better to be labeled that way. maybe just a few of them will be attacking the crazy guy.  then several serbs spat at me which – the spatting – was initiated by my neighbor serbian politician vojkan milosevic several months ago after he had wrongly – it’s my wild guess only – thought that i was into his daughter. some servile neighbors because they think they need to kiss ass to the great politician are also harassing me in the most unusual ways. several days ago i went to see my friend in hotel moscow, downtown belgrade, and once i tasted the water they brought i was sure they mishandled the glass and probably the drink. i have since had diarrhea, stomach pains and today blood in my stool. that water tasted like sulphur and toilet bowl combined – i immediately got herpes which did not go away as yet. i can count on foulplay everywhere. If you have heard or know what they want from me please send a note – i’d want to know what my serb tormentors want from me.

Becoming a fucking joke in Belgrade.

it is not a secret anymore that yugoslav (then and now serbian)
secret service lied to american authorities in order to destroy my family and life
and return me to serbia for payback at any cost. if you look at the facts there is no other reasonable explanation.

My thoughts go out to Bowe Bergdahl.

With Taliban, according to what I read couple of days ago, Bowe gets more humane treatment than I do in Belgrade, Serbia. Many people around here just behaving obnoxiously, I am dealing with some crazy motherfuckers.

Bowe, one day you’ll go home, and I’m home. That’s a huge difference Bowe and advantage in your favor. Remain calm and think about me. This city is the prison without walls and loony bin at the same time, I’d trade places with you anytime. Never did any harm to anybody, just being sacrificed,demonized,victimized,buried alive. You don't live in the state of uproar, Taliban caters to what you like, it seems like your body and mind will never be poisoned there, you can still keep it real.

Anyone is allowed to do anything nasty to me. Tonight in Maxi Delhaize store in Belgrade, Slavija Square, I came in to ask for a plastic bag and the motherfuckers inside started laughing and banging the stuff around like crazy. Yep, it was very funny.

Belgrade is not Taliban stronghold, it is the center of Serbia, Europe. Bad things would not happen to me so frequently here if many citizens were not (instructed to be) bad overall. Serbs do not respect the golden rule or ethic of reciprocity, nor the silver rule:

• One should treat others as one would like others to treat oneself.
• One should not treat others in ways that one would not like to be treated

Often the younger ones in packs behave like street dogs, while some individuals are perfidiously sneaking out a chance for concealed harassment only to get away scot-free. I guess they must be feeling much better if they somehow ruined my day and made their free-fun target - that's my humble self - feel terrible. If the entire nation finds a joy in hurting someone, mustn't there be something good about me? I envy you, Bowe.

WHY IS AMERICA GREAT IN COMPARISON TO HELL ON EARTH - SERBIA?!!!!

last minute!!!! FUCK YOU MAXI DELHAIZE, GO TO HELL MAXI DELHAIZE last minute!!!! update

I wanted to be a nice guy writing couple of jokes regarding this company during 2013 but it came to the point where today - January 11, 2014 - I stood in the checkout line at their Vojvode Stepe Blvd store around 19 hrs and I could have felt this guy (Mr Dusan Saveljic, security officer there) breathing down my neck, staring at me like a mad person with an evil smile. He looked like he was going to jump me at any moment brandishing his pen making all sort of noises with it while not even trying to hide his security officer's id tag as if challenging me: hey, here this is me, try complaining about me sucker and i'll show you what comes next! I do not know what I was charged nor how much money I gave while all the time I was looking at him over my shoulder expecting the worst.There are other people in that convenient store like a certain guy Aleksandar with funny beard that you can just feel they secretly hate you - this guy looks like I could expect anything from him too - but he never openly stood in my way with such amount of hatred and disrespect so i could not think to write about him. but tonight it was completely different and ultimately crazy, a fucking belgian supermarket store that makes the lifelong enemies for you since this fucking guy and his pack will be after me following this i am sure. belgian. i cannot believe it. found on internet someone where posted it could be another hell on earth - read here

is this Serbian European Belgian company employing hooligans without even showing them what they are supposed to do? nevermind, this is Serbia, murderers heaven. It is a devil's playground, management is probably not much smarter than this poor security officer soul, but this is Serbia where everything goes. This happened a day after I wrote the text below so I am sure this guy was incited into action by somebody! There is no question about that. I do not know what point to make other than I feel like just being attacked, raped, and provoked all at the same time within five minutes of being in that bloody store, and immediately thereafter entire hour went by as in the state of stupor just thinking what this fucking country, this fucking people want from me. Are they trying to chase me away? Do they know the tradition, it is a bad thing when the cat decides or is forced to leave the house, for that place is destined to disappear? Serbian American actor Vojislav Voyo Govedarica has put it well: Serbs lack respect for the people they do not know! Now they went a step further. They go after them like a pack of rabid, mad dogs!!!

This even sounds crazy to me but on 12th of january 2014 as I was watching popular tv show around 20:50 I came to window to catch some fresh air, and all of a sudden i was blinded by the very powerful bright light from the upper floors (terrace? - from where i am at i can only see several top floors) of the not so close (approx. 3000 feet though) vojvode stepe 116 building (where DM drogerie markt is located). Is secret service in serbia or its renegade force so powerful to know my every move so powerful to disturb my well being utilizing new and advanced technologies?! It’s a pretty scary thing especially if you can feel the consequences.

i do not get out much. it does not take more than a 10 minute walk to the store in the serbian city of Belgrade to realize that I am the target and hereby I confirm these serbs I am running into are the most obnoxious people on the planet. There was even the guy waiting in toyota corolla? camry? (now when my eyes hurt i am sorry i did not put down the licence plates nos.) aiming something at me like a bright laser as I was approaching on my way back and as I walked toward him to investigate I could easily see the real commotion in him (remorse?) as he has just done something bad but kept posture proudly arrogant as if he did something good (patriot for the country?) at the same time. I guess I might be the target of retired old Serbian boys network – the peers of Slobodan Milosevic and General Ratko Mladic - that ruled this country and secret services twenty years ago and in some way they are the rulers from the shadows even now, more powerful than ever (killed Dada Vujasinovic and numerous others, even now these cases are frozen or treated as suicides, purely terrible country; i am now so unnerved as i know the same destiny awaits me; i am now so scared i cannot walk as a normal human being, i am so scared i trip often out of fear and fear only; as i think about it with ever present injustice many million seconds a day; terrorizing fear and injustice that is that will never end; never had a full night's sleep in eleven years waiting for them to come get me, completely frozen on every unusual sound or noise, television is always on; and fear itself won't save me for they are the masters of life and death around here.). This was an example of taking real action against me, while, in general, to me it looks like the general serb population is induced into hatred by some secret service or secret service capable men cause in the past Serbs were notoriously easily duped into anything just like African tribes. the rest of them just hate passively or actively, other than spitting, killing me with their looks and making hostile noises they do not carry out terrorist activities like the serb secret agent i have just described or is it a some-power-structure-approved serb terrorist (utilizing lasers etc), i do not know what word to choose. those seeking asylum can utilize these words as these things are happening to me IN SERBIA FOR NO KNOWN REASON (FOR NO KNOWN REASON THIS IS HIGHLY IMPORTANT TO UNDERSTAND) - this is the description of event that happened on 10th of January 2014. I AM TALKING ABOUT AT LEAST SOME SERBIAN SELF STYLED "MAGNUM FORCE" WITHOUT A CLUE WHY AND WHOM THEY ARE TARGETING, AND THEY ARE DAMAGING MY BODY, VITALITY, AND LIFE.  it is impossible to anticipate where these sobs will come out of woodwork next.

I am truly sorry I was born a Serb. In order to belong to someone, one nation, that entity must be worthy of you. Serbia is not worthy of me. They are behaving like they lost their fucking mind. Worst than the freaking pigs. They take action against me and it is not only that I am truly scared but I feel and live with real consequences. In America if you are an American, you get your respect, you get your dignity; your country and guys (they do not behave like pigs and fucking animals)  stand behind you, it is all guaranteed by the Constitution, there are not fucking questions about it. In Serbia, you are sorry you were born just like me. That’s why everyone wants to go to America (except me) and 90% of Serbs dream about leaving Serbia. It is all their fault, it is their mistake they are letting the bad guys run the show around here – I can vouch for it day after day. 

Here, I am only hoping that God intervenes, that’s practically my only chance!!!

 

WHEN EVEN THE MAN WITH NO EMOTIONS CRIES

who was this great man? do you remember?!
these are the things that value in life to me:

that's why i transcribed it
how's you day
i am very emotional, passionate man i cannot help it, and that's being the son of rocco and angelina valvano
it just comes with the territory
we hug we kiss we love
when people say to me
how do you get through life or each day is the same thing
to me there are three things we all should do every day 
we do this every day of our lives
number one is laugh
you should laugh every day
number two is think
you should spend some time in thought
and number three is
you should have your emotions moved to tears
could be happiness or joy
but think about it
if you laugh you think and you cry that's a full day
that's the hack of a day
you do that seven days a week you gonna have something special and so,

speech number 84 where he said was
he did not go in, he waited 
his team was wandering where is he 
where is this great coach
he is not there ten minutes 
he is still not there
three minutes before we were to take the field
lombardi comes in
BANGS the door open
and i think you all remember WHAT GREAT PRESENCE HE HAD
all right, great presence
and he walked in
and he just walked back and forth
like this, just walked
staring at the players
and he said: all eyes on me
i am reading this in his book
i am getting the picture of this lombardi before the 'his first giving'
he said
gentlemen
we will be successful this year
you can focus on three things and three things only
your family, your religion and the green bay packers
and they knocked the walls down the rest of it was history
i said that's beautiful i am gonna do it
your family your religion and rutgers basketball... that's it, i had it


i can just cry and cry
these are the men that made the america great and then my true story what in my mind brought that dream country down to gutters as seen from my perspective.

Spoilers alert: This post was supposed to be homage to that great man Valvano, while immediately the following morning national anchors got the nerve to etiquette guess who. And who else? What half-decent fun they could have in these God-forbidden boondocks of Serbia but to prey and call people with open hearts and different views mental on the national tv (more Novi Sad than Belgrade); some even put on color coded prison stripes invoking prison time in mental institution.
Perhaps the problem is in understanding but it doesn't mean I don't get hurt. 
I never expected pampering from my fellow countrymen but what they have been doing to me in the past 10 years has been out of line and over the board.
my advice is: brothers, stop being morons and bringing up prejudice and open your minds
to many people out there i am actually making sense 
I was ready to erase this yellow highlighted text as inappropriate addendum to the post on my side,
but as soon as I walked on the street today January 9th 2014, I got it again confirmed to me that my Serb "comrades" did not change a bit overnight as my dream was, some of them are as ever putrefied in their hating minds even as they are walking into the churchyard. Even on the holy day. If you are not the fucking animals you just leave your filthy provoking shit out of church. We need Jesus to kick their ass in his place, and to leave us the peace and love, not hatred, not provocations. Just trust me, I cannot explain any further. It is just a great fear when you are dealing with offensive ignorant souls and pure hatred that even God cannot purify.

HOPING FOR THE HEAVENLY AID TO GIVE 'EM HELL ONCE AND FOR ALL

Today I wanted to cry. Serbia goes on with intimidation tactics as their modus operandi without end in sight. I rarely come out and when I do I witness new harassments, intimidations, various people in black Audis and various other suspicious vehicles surveilling my residence as if they are trying to set up sniper nests or stage an ambush for assassination at one point. Do I come in on time to see what's going on, or is it all staged to show me what's real fear?!

Also, everyone mean is allowed to come at me as they like, for example as I was passing by a Smart vehicle tonight waiting at red light in Vitanovacka street the guy inside purposely sprayed the windshield washing liquid to blind me which is now a traditional provoking trick I spoke about many times.  

I am glad I went to USA only to realize when you are the target, you got to stand your ground. Even though it seems that USA provides an equal opportunity for everyone, one should learn what happened to me there and what is that place really about. 

In the same fashion they are trying to demonize me in Serbia in order to have the basis for their harassment. The only truth is: I did not kill, rape, steal, did not do any crime since I came here – and they are behaving like I am the monster that needs to be shown “the lesson”. It could turn out easily that Serbs were the real monsters to me. Beyond a shadow of a doubt, yet unlawfully, maliciously and disgracefully they have been preventing my overall progress. These people are purely crazy. There is not any other way to describe them. Whatever happens to them they did deserve it. Period. Thanks God I feel better now - I relieved it off.

After my American nightmare has finally ended I am entirely certain there is no earthly paradise and a never never land to run to. The only difference between Serbia and United States is the level of sophistication. While in USA you deal with inquisition masters in Serbia one feels surrounded by wild barbaric hordes which employ brutal tactics and methods. A regular guy in my place would die of fear, not me. I do not care anymore; I just want to expose the evil ways of these people as they come at me. Bottom line is: if you can live without American egg nog and Serbian bourek find yourself another planet. However, the joke is frivolously out of line here, the things are much, much more serious than that. As someone said, the joke is over smell the smoke from all around.

As a matter of fact, I truly do not know what they want from me - I am not the revolutionary, and I have no intentions of changing anything esp. not the regimes. They apparently got it all wrong. I was the guy that could have brought the real positive change and improvement for I may just be that missing screw they needed. Not now. I won't  try to better them, I would just let them fade.