KAFKIANESQUE – je refuse d'être serbe ou américain comme des maintenant sur

just like americans, serbs opened 

a can of worms on me which 

they are not able to close,
fukushima effect, so they must quickly find a way 

to monsterize me in order to legalize their
unresonable persecutive actions. 

WHAT DID THEY DO TO ME?

what happened to me in america has directly denied the united states of america as the country. because one (what happened to me) negates the other (what is guaranteed by the constitution).

same thing in serbia! 

 WHAT DO YOU DO TO ME?

because they cannot control the aggression and attitude of their own people they must quickly find a way to accuse me or prove that i have deserved lynching, mobbing and other horrible things happening to me on a daily basis, things that are inadmissible by laws and extremely hard to endure. thus i am exposed to free-styled rumors on the part of malicious citizens which adds to the putrid hatred that i am experiencing almost everywhere.

are we the people led by adopted and recognized laws?
or are we the animals led by our instincts?
my experience vouches in favor of the latter: for years i have been experiencing a hiatus in personal human rights which took away the best of my years and i am going into the future unhealed as unreasonable persecution is taking place with unabated fervor. it's not only that i feel robbed of time (and thus money, success and profits), but i have no say, i am only the onlooker in this sinking boat of freedom, justice and liberty. 

BUT, MOST IMPORTANTLY, WHY THEY DO THAT TO ME?

what's happening to me is a blunt harassment approved of by the serbian state. in addition to the public lynching done by the masses. so far they were able to sabotage 90% of my regular living activities. most recently, i'd understand inability (due to my status) to make friends with top class sport player /e.g., m. popovic; o. jevtic/, but to sabotage a potential relationship with a local cashier /marija/, that boggles my mind. i indeed feel marked as the possible reincarnation of jesus christ, so that's the only answer that can justify this amount of hatred and inability to live a life without obstruction, persecution, love and all other positive things one needs in lifetime. i hereby with certainty vouch i am not anything of that magnitude, but i recognize and approve the same holy message - love!!! in return, i've been getting tons and tons of serbian hatred. in thirteen years i have been here, i did not accomplish anything i consider important. so what i do or did do to deserve this?!!! so what sparks this lunatic harassment frenzy on the part of hordes of unidentified serbians and some other serbian minorities (romas, muslims, jews, etc) or at least individuals that i know for a fact belong to these minorities. WHAT'S MY CRIME ACCORDING TO THEM?!!! like that, instead of wasting my life further - i'd like to hear what is it they do not like about me - why do they hate me or what i did do to them????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why are they confronting me on the streets? making stupid noises even beating me up several times. why are they spreading lies that i am crazy? in this regard, have to mention idiot(s) from serbian secret service BIA (names per request) that again in conversation with me have insulted my mother and talked down to me like i am at least the (political?) prisoner at large - this applied idiocy approved of and endorsed by the serbian state obstructs living to any freedom loving being like me. 
the damage has been done - someone needs to repair me.

 experienced pressure intensity in the public following the posting of this article, belgrade, serbia:

pressure intensity on september 2nd: died down 

pressure intensity on september 2nd: intensified 

pressure intensity on september 3rd: did not come out of home out of pure fear
 pressure intensity on september 4th: unbearable emissions of sulfur dioxide from neighbors heating on bad quality coal.
their shit produces a lot of smoke, soot and a powerful sulfury odor. it is impossible
to breath and sleep and the city (belgrade, serbia) does not have any modern-day regulations regarding toxic coal fumes.
pressure intensity on september 4th, noon - 16h: went out for a while but quickly retreated to the safety of home; while out experienced harassment of the worst sort by a few
 pressure intensity on september 5th: data coming soon

hatred, made in serbia

the pure truth will never outweigh, outmaneuver, outgun and outwit the money-made truth.- m.v.

cannot understand marija. i was about to offer the world to her, at least my world full of shit, provocations, and disharmony on the outside and true love on the inside and she chooses a security guard for partner. that amazes me. the stupidity always does.

then again was just wondering what bad i had done to serbs in the last 12 years i have been around here to hate me so passionately???????????????????????

do you know?

I mean what did I do to them to fucking hate me so passionately in the last 12 years of my life or ever?

I’d like to know that?

I admit that I was complaining that americans ruined my family out of spite and without reason but that was it. even protested in front of the American embassy in Belgrade for several days...

after that episode my life in Serbia turned into real hell full of shit provocations, anger and enhanced disharmony. for example, today my “neighbor”, anti-terrorist expert and the chairman of the society of Serbian – American friendship, whose name I do not want to mention for fear of retribution as I believe he had already ordered a physical attack on me this year – spat provocatively about 20 times as he was approaching me on the street!!!! 

the point of this post was to ask a simple question:

what did I do to serbs to hate me with such a passion?????????????? does anyone know – because I wanna know what is it that sparks this people into such an emotional fury, fervor and hatred?1

SERBIAN STINKY CAMPAIGN OF LIES, INTRIGUES, HARASSMENT AND AGGRESSION

being around security business for nearly 20 years i can smell a rat from a distance, but alas, this stinky serbian rat came into a grocery store on vitanovacka street around 21:30 today while i was selecting plums to purchase and (and most likely - just read on) told cashier he saw me stealing while conspicuously glancing at me while i was coming in to check out! and while i was checked out i immediately realized what he had told - conspired, because ever being so nice the other cashier threw the bags impolitely on the counter with force and aggression. was i supposed to say anything? my first thought connected with dutch and norwegian assholes (serbian monitors) that allow this shit - to happen on daily basis, same serbian shit (intrigues and lies) in different packages. i am sure this s.o.b. works for some sort of serbian police or the secret service while having in mind the blatant manner of lying and the car he drives – black VW. 

I REALIZED: THEY MUST QUICKLY FIND A PROOF OR BETTER INVENT A PROOF LIKE NIKOLA TESLA TO SHOW THE WORLD THAT I AM GENUINELY A BAD GUY AND THAT I DESERVE EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING TO ME! OHHHHH, INGENIOUS SERBIAN MIND!!! IF NIKOLA TESLA WAS THE SAME KIND OF SERB LIKE THESE MODERN DAY SERBS, I WILL DENY MYSELF. TESLA WAS THE GENTLEMAN AND THE MAN BEFORE ALL, HE WOULD HAVE NEVER DONE THESE THINGS TO ME WITHOUT REASON. 

i better stayed in home tonight or every night – because in what kind of “free” country you cannot walk undisturbed at any time of the day? serbian nights are esp. volatile for me. the attackers know that i come out every evening for shopping and they are waiting for me pretending as if they are walking dogs – while he was coming at me, this dog walker kept a laser light pointed at me while approaching for about 50 feet – i realized what he had in hand only after he passed by. do i need to tell you that i have a fresh eye discomfort and pain now as i was trying to realize (zoom in) what lights were pointed at me while he was approaching?

by simply counting how many problems i had come across tonight in only thirty minutes of going out for shopping, i think this behavioral sample proves there is something very wrong with serbian nation. 

green day states americans are idiots, but what are serbs?

something is very, very wrong with a lot of things i experience here, and i just do not have any powerful associates to help me out but God. and it seems as if God has gone to sleep. if he ever wakes up i hope i shall only smile. i do not remember when was the last time i smiled in serbia (serbia with a small s) 

until then i am only defending myself the best and the only way i know - via internet. selah!

SERBIAN FIXATION

i am thankful to the friends and colleagues from itf and usta for
showing a sudden support, i am sorry for the guy but someone need to show serbs they cannot let off and finger their aggression and frustration unselectively against one person, and indefinitely.
i am coming across many 'crazies' these days making noises (wanna put me in chains it seems) and attacks are being enhanced overall. mostly by the unknown to me individuals.
they need to find another effigy to burn because they believe they were bombed as an innocent nation.
i have nothing to do with that.
i'd like that pressure is increased so they get the right message quicker though i believe it will never happen.
it's only the question of stupid and violent and more stupid and violent. no reason can ever win logic where i am at right now. 

update on sept. 19th 2013: serbs cannot handle the truth and they have no consciousness. they keep targeting me (over 50 attacks of various intensity today only) and i believe they'd be satisfied only if they managed to impale me somehow. other than that, i cannot believe that one nation can preserve this gung-ho attitude against one individual for years. i am sure that neo-nazis from dutch and norwegian governments (nato plumes and serb monitors; they've been more catholic than the pope, not germans) are indirectly instructing serbian government into harassing me. regular folk do not have logistics to keep targeting me on their own. it's been so unreal!

al-Qaida (and the kafkaian undoing)

al-Qaida (2010)

/as an artist/ painted this painting just to point out that what al-qaida did to america on 9/11/01, america did worse to me on 9/6/02, so i cannot put parity mark between al-qaida and united states because what "the land of the free" (if you are truly free why highlight that?) did was unexpected and by default it makes it a far worse experience. in other words, sudden blow that ruins family by a hardened criminal does not hurt as the kafkaian twist perpetrated by "the friends".
my point is that usa denied me as a person and denied all my rights to anything important. it is like a biblical sentence - even criminals have a chance to reenter the society another time, not me (according to all united states actions and my situation since 1995-2002 to the present day). so finally they put me in prison with u.s. mobsters and al-qaida warriors from egypt, syria, czechnya, libya, pakistan etc and vowed not to let me out until i signed i will go back voluntarily to serbia. never went before any judge in that process - in the country that "supposedly" respects laws, due process and human right conventions - just the brute force of the system! i call this experience surreal not just kafkaian. btw, after that i never saw the rest of what used to be a very happy family again. i have not been able to recuperate from that blow to this day.

alas, my point is not to complain about what united states did to me. alas, i want to cry out the amazing fact that in american al-qaida styled prison i felt more freedom, light and sympathy /from the guards and other prisoners, thieves and killers that is/ than i have been feeling and am feeling now on the streets of belgrade - serbia. i am soaking up tons of serbian hatred kafkaian way, it is simply amazing and unbelievable; it just makes me a better and better person. and surprisingly, the more better i become, serbs are getting lower in all possible ways. selah.
cannot even order a sandwich anywhere. today in toma joint on terazije it felt like i ate a kitchen cleaning powder. either that or it was served with tons of hatred so it tasted bitter, one way or the other. 

it feels as if serbs are competing who will do me in more, in a quicker and badder way! oh satan, why are so evil thee? selah!

i think i was sent to serbia with a reason. they ruined my family (which promptly made me a collateral) - and "i am in the shithouse" now (my situation/position in belgrade) which prevents me from continuing with normal life. i believe i am some signal (a sign) or some other sort of tool for united states whereby they make global moves in serbia (balkans, belgrade). i do not know exactly how it works - but just the bare fact that for instance i cannot start normal conversations as i used to and make friends (as an outgoing person i used to be - everyone is either scared of me or aggressive to the point of escalating a fight - NOW ALMOST EVERYONE HAS THE ATTITUDE WHICH IS SHOCKING AND MAKES ME A TOTAL ALIEN IN THIS WORLD) makes me wonder how long this type of american quarantine is going to last. i wonder will it last for the rest of my entire life?

snakes’ den and the gypsy man's army

every weekend i go to antique fair in belgrade on slavija sq. and today i went out with eyeburns and disturbed vision. like i said major figure there is mr. gypsy and for some reason he opposed me from day one and i had to write about what his actions were. in order to retaliate i believe someone from the gypsy's army of gypsies and other soldiers there did something wrong to me today, i suspect someone brought a military grade laser and they were aiming it at me under the tables or from some spot i could not immediately see so they did the damage for my eyes burn as fire.

SCREWED UP AGAIN

as i was preparing to exit trolley at slavija square a group of 5 to ten serbian hooligans surrounded me making noise (a disturbance) and trying to confuse me which led to a panic attack. i believe i was kicked in the groins during this commotion. then thirty minutes later i was getting checked out by mary in the supermarket and again different set of Serbian lowlifes tried to create a commotion and to disturb me to the point that I would not know what was going on and perhaps they were hoping for another panic attack but the presence of mary let me remain calm. i was amazed and the bread i bought and she touched i believe is truly blessed by the goodness of her heart. she even instructed me not to drink and put the beer i had in cart away and said she won’t check it. i love mary. she likes to work. i do not like those girls that do not like working. and professional art collecting has to do a lot with constant fighting with the dust. somebody needs to clean it, and i need some help. my ultimate goal would be to create global interactive networks of art lovers. i want to turn enemies into friends, the friends i can cooperate with and teach them something about art along the way. i’d like to see all my enemies as friends whose main goal would be to appreciate art. however, it’s a mission impossible in serbia, i’d have an easier task of making american rednecks art lovers than  serbs. sometime ago, i had everything to be a success. pedigree, education, upbringing, surrounding, intellect, friends and family,experience, Lord! then some motherfucking americans tried hard to remove the steady soil underneath my feet. i can only say combination of drexel university and university of pennsylvania, philadelphia law enforcement agencies and those tracking russian spies in america. looking at trading places (eddie murphy in philadelphia), they have been known for set ups. will there be any heavenly punishment for them? in addition to that without mary and american blessings i am truly a failure.