My life in Serbian ghetto

I must admit to one thing, my life has been ruined. And I know it by knowing one thing, I cannot be cool anymore. next chance for being cool will be when they physically end my life and finish their irrational deed. The fact is – everybody around has the opinion about me, and to be Painfully Honest – they all know me. That’s where the problem lies. If we do not admit to that – they – those that do gangstalking – will have a chance to judge me and lie about me. My problem was created on the government level. Because the facts are: my family is ruined without a due process or any judicial decision and I have not seen my child in twelve years as if nothing happened even though I had a fantastic family life. I can also complain that I am not allowed to have another chance to found a new family which those that did it to me can blame on me and my skills. If we do not acknowledge those facts where the system hurt me (which is impossible as Serbian nor American government won’t admit to anything) I will be labeled paranoid and schizophrenic which is not true. that by itself ruins my life everyday not to mention physical gangstalking where serbs produce lasers or pretend to do so. I do not know. Their actions are important.

as today I was close to taxi hub stop at autokomanda nearby partizan stadium at around 18:30 (February 26^th 2015) and those serbs (serbs are not kind - kind of serbs) behaved like there was a brawl of some sort and one of them in the cab was pointing something bright red towards me intentionally like he meant a real harm. like he knew this laser rumor. You know what I mean. those are the ones full of shit kind of serbs that have premium taxi positions in the city, probably gotten by knowing the late arkan or just by being subsidized by the network of kosovar montenegrins which are tight as ticks – this guy looked like he was one of them (Kosovar Montenegrin). Montenegrins, nothing personal, think they are like gods allowed to kill a man and get away with it. they think they are the Spartans and Sioux of the Balkans, better, smarter, stronger than anyone else. I have roots too and Montenegrin friends, but some of these people can be the biggest assholes in the world. i feel sorry now for portraying myself as montenegrin while being in the united states promoting people that do not give a hoot about my well-being. with respect to my ancestry I hereby renounce any link, roots or heritage with these people even if it had existed in the past. Thanks but no thanks. Serbs and other serbians even teach their kids to hate me, I witnessed to that while waiting on traffic lights when the kids are glancing at me suspiciously, arrogantly and occasionally even shyly while their dads are like little foam-mouthed hitlers throwing their hands in the air hectically during the attacks of verbal menses.

I do not give a damn if they do have lasers or not, I am thinking about Serbian (serbians, serbs, montengrins, gypsies, et cetera, all those that live here) actions every second of my life. I may go to million places in the city and in 24 hours, it is amazing, there will be million serbs who will create million problems and won’t ruin just several days in a row. I am talking my entire life. my eyes hurt. God Almighty, what did they do to me?!! I have got to live on with injuries of all kinds. Did I deserve it?!! yes I did, I should have kissed someone’s ass. the real problem is the fact that they know me, and that by itself must be acknowledged. We must say no to gangstalking and ruining human lives. Whether I will lose my vision is important but second. i  have enough of my own problems already, this comes next to not coming out of home out of fear of being around serbs and problems they are causing and thus being glued to pc monitor for extra time and raised blood sugar levels due to enormous stress i am coming through. The most important thing is, they have been running down my life into the ground for the last 11-12 years. I have not been able to do anything right, let alone to find a partner in life. I had a few friends but those individuals were extra brave and crazy courageous to expose themselves to serbian grinding machine that is pure evil. and I am talking present day Serbia. let me make a comparison. twenty years ago I would have died and do anything to live in America, it was my alma mater. I put my life on the line for that country by signing for selective services, but I would not do it today. Neither I dream of going there. Serbia! as of 11-12 years ago, present day Serbia is a pure evil to me. imagine if someone was labeled tupac shakur’s killer and then placed in tupac’s ghetto. what a life of terror would that be?!! just imagine. serbs are not swiss, they are serbs and these that I know I would temper-wise compare to portoricans (by and large by stereotype) out of all nations in the world, not that there is anything wrong with that. You have all sorts of dog varieties. well guess, this situation happened to me. I feel many serbs are out there to get me and someone does add insult to injury all the time. Someone enjoys it. if their wild side would end up with just being arrogant or ignorant. This is hell. I am sure, this is the hell on earth.

judging by writings on serbiancafé.com (discussion: politics) and talking to some people: serbs officially believe they can destroy someone if that person IN THEIR EYES is threat to national security AS THEY SEE IT. in other words, by taking the matters of national security in their hands free for all season of killing is open if they only find themselves someone they do not like, and then they can rightfully in their minds destroy or disintegrate that person. in america angry people play video games and do pranks while problem here is they are physically hands-on justice-in-their-hands malicious executioners onto the selected targets and i am the easiest target since my only weapon is my intelligence. imagine if someone that does not even look angry but perfidiously cold and calculated decides whether you live or slowly die, and that happens by many on daily basis.
if someone’s deliberating if you are useful idiot or sentient pest, you cannot expect anything good there. if you are not able to hit back hard, then you have to protect yourself anyway you can.

last minute - 28th feb. 2015: for those in charge, instead of figuring out if these allegations are true and who is creating problems, i feel as if the pressure around me is intensified. i got another bruise on my vehicle this evening while shopping at maxi store - vojvode stepe str., and now i am positive that i have been targeted with lasers by organized group of some sort. the same or similar loosely affiliated "syndicates" have been trying to poison me (taskforce, multiple contracts) likewise. i can barely see from all those floaters in my eyes, burning sensations and my vision is becoming increasingly dull. i am afraid to exit home as potential threats could be almost anywhere. sometimes i made a mistake of accepting offered drinks at the people i do not know only to find out later they are backing radical political currents that promote violence against their potential opponents. abdominal and kidney problems immediately followed these occasions as if hardwired. also, while sitting at their homes in belgrade i am unsure if they were positioning me in the way so that their partners in crime could snipe me with lasers from buildings nearby.
neighbors i never heard of from adjacent street keep bright flood long range lights pointed into my windows and i can overhear them commenting loudly in reference to art when i am photographing for my collection, which is spying and who knows what else they and other paparazzo style gang-stalkers do; as far as neighborhood is concerned, intensified burning eyes sensations happen when i am doing yard chores or entering home so i feel there is a major laser nest in the neighborhood. with beltway sniper attacks there were two against 300 million, whereas in serbia there are many against just one. let alone "neighbors" in the military built highrise overseeing the entire neighborhood.  spying all over the city is quite an obvious affair - Hitchcockian voyeurism and obsession are on full display. these sobs will never leave me alone. I WONDER IF ANYONE REMEMBERS OPENING SENTENCE OF KAFKA'S "TRIAL": Someone must have been spreading slander about Josef K., for one morning he was arrested, though he had done nothing wrong. 
i did not do anything wrong either but i have million of bloodthirsty serbs on my trail. and a few of them are doing a real physical harm to me...
march 2nd 2015: around 14:00 hrs: Vozdovac, Belgrade, Serbia: as i was driving home from the store i was attacked with laser again today. there were three very tall and strongly built montenegrin looking guys waiting - two of them by the black limousine like in the B-gangster-movies (here in serbia/montenegro/bosnia/albania you cannot make difference between good and bad guys because they all look alike, dress similarly and drive same vehicles which one could obtain only with drug money – while in america you can make an immediate distinction if a secret service is before you - they are so obvious as far as their dignity goes as well - they are slow-mo like lions and not aggressive and lowly like hyenas)… the one i did not see at first was the one doing the sniping, he was in the driver’s seat. and then I allowed myself just a moment of relaxation and comfort. if i had put my sun visor down before passing by and before realizing the third one was at the driver’s seat i would have been all right probably. and then approx. 100 yards down, i came across their back up team - just moving out of their wait - an old guy, most likely their boss, and a younger woman in the consistently team-wise same op-fashion vehicle, though this one was an SUV, it was obvious they were not an immediate threat but just surveying the outcome. 

due to construction work in the neighborhood i could only pick and choose this way back to my place. once you get hit by laser which by the way anyone can obtain easily and they are not even classified as highly dangerous handicapping weapons, there is an immediate burning sensations around your eyes, dullness of vision and the confusion. when you settle down after several minutes, dullness of vision remains and it is very hard to concentrate, for all those floaters floating in your eyes and headache, not to mention enormous amount of stress and discomfort and feeling that you are in the jaws of powerful lawless animals whereby the legal and law enforcement system stands just to cover up an overall madness on the ground.  the loss of vision is permanent of course.

and the downside is: someone that does not like serbia can prolong / escalate this situation indefinitely because i will keep writing about any injustice for as long as i can see. 

do they want to eat my flesh?

 i believe that any normal human being 

would not endure this serbian hatred, 

prejudice and bigotry
for more than three straight days.
they would succumb to it soon, 

and would have jumped off 

some highrise or bridge. 

i've been a target for over 12 years now 

and that is why i think i am anything 

but the normal human being.
i've also been a very, VERY tolerant man.

it is amazing how much venom, ignorance and hatred i encounter in people on the streets of serbia, i must be the most hated person in this part of the world. because the things they do to me i would not call friendly, i as a victim could only classify it as pure hatred and animosity.

SOME comparable comparisons would be THE HATRED BETWEEN: turks - armenians, glasgow rangers - celtic fans, jews - hitler. just like isil (as admitted by sources: rodney shakespeare, mark dankof, tom engelhardt, steven kelley, arthur topham, hillary clinton, noam chomsky, et al.) I WONDER if this hatred was created, sponsored and maintained by someone out of serbia. even though i do not care and called it quits a long time ago, people here are like hyennas that smelled blood, they keep attacking for reasons known to them only. i cannot be eaten, or could i? 

If these things happen in Paris, France - Click here 
then you know it is many times worse in Belgrade, Serbia. I am just comparing not a targeted gang-stalking that is going on where I am not even wearing any garment like kippah that symbolizes adherence to any group or nationality. By this I mean when they spit in Belgrade it is much too more close for comfort than in Paris, France (review footage on 00:57"; 01:19".)  

i call it a lucky day when i do not encounter physical threats in serbia. if they would only keep spitting i would call it a lucky day. but they use lasers which permanently destroy eyesight of one individual! serbs!
just like today in vero supermarket, when the actions of one employee sparked the outrage of customers and other unsuspecting employees who then followed the nasty example - avalanche effect.
vero is greek owned supermarket chain where there comes a lot of arab refugees and the store i am talking about is located on vojvode stepe blvd. i felt employee animosity there even before esp. from the guy dressed in white bandana working in the meat section of the store.
as i passed him today and went into isle where he was not able to see me i overheard him saying to his colleague that collects carts from around the store: 'what a terrible, terrible creature.'
i tried to ignore his speech although i am sure that in comparison to me, any arab that comes to the store does get all their respect. 
why do serbs treat me as shit?!! i am the one who was born in this city? on the other hand they give their full respect and all privacy privileges to arab refugees that flooded this neighborhood, btw, there isn't anything wrong with that. however, it is beyond me, i do not have a criminal record and i have benefited to this society - serbia - more than 98% of its citizens in the past 12 years, still i am hated retardedly like an inhuman being around here. 

Fear.

you can't make this stuff up

a long time ago, in America, someone armed with innuendo turned my life into chaos and crisis, and i have since become the crisis manager. probably the only man in the world who is not allowed to plan a family and lead a family life - even if someone would miraculously take gang stalking out of equation - let alone roam around town undisturbed and free (deprived of right to privacy and security.) I do not know dark forces that did it and how, however, covering up crime is a crime too. now, I live in Serbia...

I feel fear in Serbia, and it is right there around my heart. I've never felt this way before. I've never felt intimidated in United States even though I had been led to a prejudice [by the press and movies mostly; e.g. "Conspiracy Theory"(1997)] FBI or CIA are all killers. So in the country where you should've felt fear, being around CIA killers, I felt okay. Not now. I guess the problem may be that Serbia is a country where chaos is still dominant factor in everyday life. There is no order (not necessarily), so you may expect the worst from everyone, anytime and anywhere. and the things have been happening to me, that's why. 
the biggest insults and threats are coming from the crowd of those who perceive me as a threat and do not want to see me improving every day. when it comes to think about it, i've always been unreasonably perceived as threat by ignorant people in charge for no good reason whatsoever. that is why i am being back to square one day after day

FOR EXAMPLE TODAY, 13th of February 2015:
utilizing body language some serbs are pretending these days as if they are holding something dangerous in their hands when i am passing by, but it usually turns out those dangerous items are their mobile phones; they are trying to scare me, i figure. although there are serbs that produce something more sinister like powerful lasers which are in fact highly dangerous weapons that could put you out of sight in the matter of seconds. two young tall and skinny (think timothy mcveigh) serbs were following me tonight into the maxi store in kumodraska street and one of them held something which perfectly fitted the inside of his hand - as if you would hide a cigarette inside your hand. it was i am sure now as i was then - a hand held laser. they noticed i was aware and did not proceed to do what i believe was their original plan. i am sure this and similar behavior is organized crime and the government knows about it but they don't do nothing. i am sure i made a lot of enemies in the government ranks for i expressed myself in the blog herewith explicitly - it is one of the reasons i can think of with respect to why this serbian terror (it is not just a plain gang-stalking) is going on. i am thus a target of nationalist groups and in serbia there are many nationalistic groups that are secretly financed by either right-wing and left-wing political parties and/or foreign intelligence services to perform violent tasks on their behalf on per need basis. granted, i don't believe that criminals that do drug trafficking and high profile crimes are behind this crazy gang-stalking. i believe those two tonight were sent to do me a physical harm by some other people. if i was not surprised by their actions - i am sure i would run away like a little bitch. they surprised me though so i was unable to think.  

i am living proof that serbs can be very mean, nasty and highly malicious when someone allows them to target practice going off at me as they like while exploring the limits and depths of their viciousness at the same time. if the society can be a menace to one individual, than such society is spiritually challenged and morally superficial. of course, elsewhere, goethe, benjamin fuller, voltaire, brancusi and many others were individuals able to influence masses and better well being of any and every individual in their habitats. they were the candle lights that practically never ceased to gleam.

Prison called Serbia.

forces of destruction are prevailing in serbia since this blog would not be active if that  has not been so.

if they are not using lasers or directly beating me up serbs are making noises. it is a real hell having to wait in postal lines to pay your bills as they are behind you making manmade gang stalking noises. today – February 2^nd 2015 – it was a guy dressed in G4S American security company uniform. everybody noticed but nobody said a word, and it looked like he wanted to be the one, eyeing me up to see if I will react to a gangstalking noise. every time I ask CIA for help it seems as if I am getting into more and more problems around here….its impossible to start a new life in serbia because i simply do not have funds enough to have the least required amount of safety and financial freedom. i am still struggling high time - twelfth year in the row without a chance for independence and the new beginning.

 
Is the state something available to anyone? 
If I was born in one city or state like Belgrade - Serbia -
does it mean I have to endure to suffer and be punished from ignorant people around me against my will. 
By birth, I am forced to live here. And when I had gotten away they lied to get me back to torment me.
What is this? To me, being born in this country is by itself a punishment from God.
Because, it is how it feels here. Slow death by suffering menace and injustice.
It is a prison where you can get hurt on daily basis by some people you did not
want to be with or around in the first place. The situation can escalate at any moment beyond
your capacity of controlling it, and your life is always on the line, like it could have been
on a death-row with inmates freely roaming around or worst. It is the prison with no walls. Prison called Serbia.

CRAZY OR WHAT?

still betting on djokovic after all what serbs did and are doing to me;  they're looking for blood. l'Étranger