TOTAL SERBIAN BLOCKADE & PERSONAL DEBACLE OR DOES MY GUARDIAN ANGEL KNOW HE'S GOT TO WATCH OVER ME, HE MUST'VE BEEN BUSY DRINKING BEER,CHASING BITCHES

In order not to attract 5+ additional millions of Serbian haters and enemies - first off - I just want to point out that the following does not imply neither it has an anti-Lausevic sentiment. I do not want more wackos looking like ready to pop the cap into my ass; what they were doing to me up to this point was scary and I bear consequences already. I have too many existential problems like Lausevic too - what could have been different? - to immerse myself into reading his book. I was able to pass through the page four only, I guess, and immediately I noticed one ominous detail - if his myopia is truly -6.5 no wonder he reached for the gun in the bar fight as myself with -2 do not see a damn thing without glasses esp. not in the dark. that's total bollocks! I just want to protect my own ass like Lausevic or anyone else in the world would protect their own. I am not sure any Serb in their right mind would accept to be sacrificed for Zarko Lausevic or anyone else for that matter. I have read that someone wrote the following on the many forums about this issue: "What's the problem now? Zarko Lausevic killed two guys and escaped to USA, and you are calling on to him to come back, why? Because you are attracted to him... Later you are in awe about the double standards? You all Serbs have them, do not be playing stupid, just read the majority of comments on the article about Lausevic and everything will be clear"
What I do not get in the entire story? Roman Polanski is the famous Polish Jew. That Jews are a bit privileged class in USA is not hyperbolizing. At least Polanski was sentenced in USA for rape. Spent some 40 days in jail. Ok, but the justice system works. Miladin Kovacevic beats up Brian S. in USA and Serbian Embassy helps him escape to Serbia. Unbelievable. He became media star, a hero to some. At the Embassy, these were the same guys I contacted to complain I was unable to see my child for so many years and they did nothing to help me. Serbian Government is then forced to pay $1000000 ransom regarding Miladin's case. Zarko Lausevic, well-known Serbian actor, gunned down two young men and got a stay in America. There are so many flaws in making things logical there that when thinking about it I come to crazy thoughts that somehow Serbian (ex-Yugoslavian) Embassy took and mix-matched my records and helped some of these guys for money and ruined my life and family in the process. What I assume is they misinformed FBI that I was charged with some murders and that my background was yet unclear or similar lies and somehow they let Zarko or someone else slip through instead of me - I simply cannot explain many things that happened to me including jailtime without a sentence etc. How in the world Zarko was allowed to enter USA in the first place, if Polanski, Charlie Chaplin (expelled from USA), OJ Simpson, and the guy who shot his wife in the Cali restaurant are bigger stars. I want to argue that someone has mistaken my identity on purpose to help someone, not necessarily Lausevic, somehow for a lot of money. Lausevic was allowed to stay in USA after being in immigration prison because his family lives there AND WHAT ABOUT MY FAMILY THEY DESTROYED EXCEPT THAT I DID NOT KILL ANYBODY OR PERHAPS I DID - I JUST HAVE NOT FOUND OUT AS YET - I HAD A FAMILY THERE TOO - SOMETHING STINKS BIG TIME IN USA AND SERBIA JUSTICE IS NOT FOR ALL. Something has been fishy since the day I was arrested and asked to cooperate. To cooperate - like I am the criminal. On the other hand, some Serbs that were completely illegal were telling me that they were arrested by Immigration and then released to roam freely again. Something just does not add up here. by that logic, any fool can become U.S. government's informant by agreeing "to cooperate" upon arrest - if i only realized that. to me "to cooperate" was the same as admitting unknown guilt. I am not crying for USA - truth to be told, why - is that justice what happened to me or JM Bromgard and others? I am crying for the quality of my life in the family surrounding which I do not have and will probably not have for any time soon. It's been nine years since then

As of recently since I had posted here the stuff I had to (take off my chest, at least).

There reacted those Serbs - I reckon charismatic Jovo Kapicic (93) and Co., and those that truly own this country - the stonewall communists, their kiss and kin and other parties in power that claim the title on freedom of speech and freedom of thinking in Serbia sending off red alert signals to everyone in the process. Those that do not want to do any kind of business with me had let me up a long time ago. And without them without the 51% of Serbian population I am talking just the basic finances; I have not bought anything bigger than the pair of shoes or fountain pen since I came here in 2003!!!!! A good example of an analogue situation today is in the following headline - Turkey recalls Paris envoy after lawmakers back genocide bill.

Did I deserve that? If you think this is impossible just take into account the fact that I have not seen my child for nine years and that my ex-both common law and legally married wife remarried. Who in the world is not allowed to see or speak to his child?! And if I was any child molester with history of family problems would not the newspapers somewhere write about it. Would not I be known as such at least in places I lived? I am talking this is the Real American conspiracy. No, I loved my child and my wife and someone in the U.S. took everything I ever had and besides my family I had a lot of material possessions that probably 90% of American society does not have. People that truly know me here in Serbia know this is the truth. My knowledge and in-born, in-bred (taken in from my second father and mother) feeling make me the master of creating values. Someone just needs to read the private collection add I ran in Davenport's Art Price and Reference Guide in those years.

In 2002, American officials broke into our family home and offered me a racquet to cooperate with the Government of United States and I declined because I did not want to speak of anything I knew nothing about. And that was the end of a story, I was then sent to prison without ever seeing any Judge (!) or lawyers, and from there to Serbia. Do not know why - except that they wanted to get my stuff destroying my family as the collateral damage. If they offered a fair trial I would have beat them down to their sorry legal socks – in America Justice is Blind indeed for the unluckiest like me. I did not carry the light, perhaps it was my problem.

Well I have seen a movie about the Montana man, Jimmy Ray Bromgard, who was wrongfully sentenced to 40 years for raping a young girl. He spent 15 years. I wept as I watched how he had to learn to fight in order to stay alive inside the prison environment. Rapists are known to get beat up on every occasion. So in order to gain some respect he had to break the major inmate figures to pieces. I totally assumed myself into his story. His fight is over and I do not know if mine will ever be. "They just lock you up. They don't rehabilitate you," Bromgard testified. That is the situation for me in Serbia – the Country Named Prison. "You learn a lot of new tricks, I'd tell them 'good luck,' - If he knows how to fight, he might survive. But when he gets out, he'll be worse, and a lot of people come out worse," Bromgard said and I cannot agree more with that. I do not even know what is my bad – I might think – the treason as I refused to participate in 1990s wars as they were. So now even the 17-18 old indoctrinated young bucks are coming at me like they are going to force me to lick the spit on the ground beneath them. I mean the situation for me here is impossible; I have begun feeling like the maggot not a human being. And they also play hot and cold game easing the things up for a few days when they see that I wrote something here, and out of blue they come up with something new. When I came home yesterday my bollocks hurt as if I was hit with plastic bullets, I do not recall that anyone hit me, except that I was dodging some drunken gypsies on Kalenic Market who were kicking the stuff around me with axe shaft etc. and I thought their looks meant trouble. The best that comes to mind is that one of them hit me somehow. But I do not recall a direct hit, except that it hurts like it esp. when I press a certain frontal point mildly. I mean it is impossible for me to gain any bit of respect in this country and make of life anything better than pure survival. I guess someone (the commies? or those that pull the strings) did not allow me to form a new family here. Now they also want to take my bread. The bread and the basics. For goodness sake I am left to fight like a gladiator to earn my reputation and that - on the street : that is my future in Serbia. Look what they have taken away from me…..!!! quote me if you experience any form of deprivation of human rights. By the same token, I quoted Jimmy Ray Bromgard because he is the only man on the planet that truly can understand how I feel!!!! But in my mind Bromgard was very, very lucky man, in this regard, pls remember where I will be in 10-20 years down the road as I do not see any sunny personal prospects – and check if I was for real. Thanks.

When it seems and feels as suicide each time I have to exit the house - let me ask you what sort of life is it? Having to put up with these Serbian monsters on daily basis. On the other hand, lure of the United States could be compared with question to young girl: "would you sleep with tom cruise or keith richards knowing he or he has a full blown AIDS?" Or to myself: "Here, would you go to United States if we guarantee you that your life would be fully and unrepairably ruined?"

The trick of the system's mechanism is not telling the girl about the illness. In my case, I did not know what I was involving myself into by deciding to go there.

I went to United States not knowing they play dirty there most of the time. I did not know one can get unharmed only if wearing light or by being bad to the bone - insensitive to society's influences. Since I am not a criminal I always wanted to hear what the people had to say and directed myself upon their feedback. Unfortunately, I picked all of the American vibes - the good and the bad, but more bad than good and I was harmed all the way. And my concept of freedom is nothing new. In other words I do not see what is the way out for me. What Kingdom I shall bow to? They are not allowing me anything anymore. Read the title again and turn off the lights. FINALLY, AM I REALLY THAT BAD THAT EVEN HARDENED CRIMINALS UNDOUBTEDLY CAN ENJOY BENEFITS OF THE SOCIETY AND I CANNOT - IT DOES NOT MATTER IF IT IS PERFECT OR NOT, FAIR OR UNFAIR. SERIOUSLY WHAT IS MY FAULT?! AFTER ROBBING ME OF EVERYTHING, IS THE ABILITY TO PUT DOWN A LINE OR TWO A FLAW, DANGER OR A PROBLEM ON MY PATH THAT LEADS TO NOWHERE. I LOST PURPOSE THAT'S FOR SURE. SOMEONE OR SOMETHING HAS TO STAND BEHIND THAT PURPOSE. WHEN YOU LOSE TRUST IN PEOPLE THERE IS NOTHING TO GAIN, NOTHING TO FIGHT FOR. IN REALITY I AM DOING TIME IN THE AMERICAN WOEBEGONE JAIL CALLED SERBIA Nazalost neko zverski prati sta se desava. U naucne svrhe!!! They need my reaction to write case studies...

TROUBLE AT MACDONALD’S

Sunday, December 18^th 2011; McDonald's, Slavija, Belgrade: I went in for the milkshake but I saw the sign they were giving away candle holders if you bought Mc Menu meal. As greedy as I was, and even though harmed by the experience from the last night I let the milkshake go and opted for McFillet Meal and candle holder and the girl disappeared for a while. Sometimes they just grab returned drinks from the counter, I had seen, they do not pour the fresh one in, was it the problem? Alas, when she returned she brought an orange juice drink whose density immediately was a suspect to me. I felt something was wrong with it. Finally – tired of thoughts that some Serbs were going to actually poison me I said to myself: “Now, drink up, drink up. It’s impossible someone will poison you here in MacDonald’s.” I felt something was wrong but since I wanted to conquer my fear I drank without truly inspecting the taste I practically gulped the drink – and it went in like into the drain, however, something was really wrong with that juice. Should I have returned it? Trusting people around here is going to kill me. Now I am writing this with more back kidney pains. When I got home I opened the Scripture and Mark 16:18 gave me a bit of hope “they will pick up serpents, and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.” Sorry, but the killing stomach and kidney pains are the reminder if there will ever be the next time in Serbian MacDonald's or any place else.

SERBS ARE WONDERFUL ANIMALS

In former Yugoslavia anticommunist and nationalist Serbs were always the victims of the regime even though many “innocent” Serbs were put to death as well. One of the main tricks of Tito’s Government was to force Serbs to terrorize Serbs. At Goli Otok concentration camp Serbian brothers were forced to beat, spit, torture, and fuck each other, prisoners were forced to torture other political inmates psychologically and physically to stay alive. THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME IN BELGRADE. THE INVISIBLE HAND OF THOSE CAMOUFLAGED COMMUNISTS -

according to them when speaking privately every devout Christian is evil mad-man

- AND THEIR CHILDREN THAT NOW RULE SERBIA HAVE MANAGED TO ORGANIZE SERBS TO TORTURE ME IN ALMOST THE SAME FASHION AS THEY TORTURED SERBS AT GOLI OTOK. This what you are going to see on the enclosed video (THE SOUND IS AWFUL SO POSTING OF THE VIDEO - BELOW - LOST THE POINT COMPLETELY) and photo – man made noise - is only 0.0001% of the terror that regularly happens to me on daily basis, and the man-made noise is the least bothering thing. Besides, she looks like the next door neighbor and almost spoils the concept that I will ever have to sleep with any other girl in my life; besides, she also appears relaxed, cool, as if she does not give a damn, I bet she'd be licking an ice cream in one hand while slashing my throat with another. I am pretty sure that anyone that allows himself/herself to thus enjoy in torturing anyone psychologically can also torture that same person physically – the pain incurred is almost the same. I am afraid that Serbs have no limits in what they can do to me. I mean people coming back from Goli Otok were literally dying after few months upon arrival. I am afraid that Serbs can poison my food because to me there is no difference in what this girl in tramway is doing nonstop for 15 minutes while I was riding aboard (this is not an isolated case – man made noise happens nonstop) and - physical torture. To me it is the same. If she was serving to me like this evening when I was having a pancake at “ZVRK” Pancake Shop on Vojvode Stepe Blvd., I am sure she would have slipped some bleach along with sugar into the pancake's dressing. As I am having back pains right now, thinking about how low people here are ready to go in torturing me (this video and photo were recorded today on December 16^th, 2011) I was asking myself if the girl that works at Zvrk poisoned my food (mixing sugar and poisons and she indeed put a lot of sugar like she wanted to conceal something) as she tried to double price me on the meal as well - which lit the red lamp to me but only after I greedily ate the fucking thing - I guess I was hungry but is it justified reason to die in this country? This entire situation is entirely rocking my existential concept of life, dignity and human freedoms. I believe that my freedom is very limited, if any. The way Serbs are behaving I am afraid that here or there something will happen to me and I will die. I know that everything that is happening to me has its roots in America. I virtually had no justified paranoia problems pre-September 11th, pre-Bush administration election and pre-my unexplained arrest and thus implied stigma. What is the true reason I am not sure, but I know that the fear and terror are for real. I have no doubts about that. I have kidney pains as I write this and impaired vision and I just cannot believe that the girl did anything wrong - but being trustful can cost me my life around here. So even if she put some bleach or whatever into my pancake it will damage my kidneys for good but I won’t go to hospital to check myself tonight because I have lost faith in the system and people completely. I basically do not trust anyone. I feel like a prisoner on Goli Otok island. My immediate uncle died several months after spending 2 years there in 1950s, and I know this stuff is for real. Entirely innocent and very young he was the victim of jealousy and finger pointing. This is the system. The Machine. I know these people will terrorize me because someone told them to do so. And the Serbs will do it. Serbian political prisoners, anticommunists and innocent Serbs were the only prisoners there. The only Croats that were prisoners at Goli Otok other than Serbs were Croatian and Muslim Ustashi (Ustashas' Movement) who were promised redemption if they were terrorizing and organizing Serbs against Serbs through posing as Goli Otok political prisoners. There were virtually no other nationalities like Slovenes. Today there is a restaurant called OZNA in Belgrade ( it is the name of secret police that arrested and triage-tortured Serbs before sending them to Goli Otok where they were tortured 24 hours a day) I am pretty sure that if I went to OZNA or any other place owned by the "Children of the Communist Revolution" (: they pretty much own the media, universities, big businesses, big capital, etc.; and what they say goes, their people are in charge and in charge of thoughts, too:) I would have been poisoned just for the rap sheet that is currently revealed on me. So I do not go out much, but there is no way of knowing where – it could happen. The girl in the photo does not look like a terrorist to me, but she really is. So just by looks I cannot be singling people out. When I have exhausting pains like now then it is too late. A mechanic friend told me when the red lamp goes off, then it is too late to repair vehicles. It is the same with the pain – when you have to write something like this, and when you have kidney pains then it is too late to do anything. As far as the human liberties are concerned Serbia and USA are the last countries where I would like to be. However, I am forced to be here. Although with American influence around the world I do not think anywhere else would have been much different. Same rap sheet, same shit every day – waiting for some Jack Rubenstein or Jill Ruby out there to end my life as I am coward to end it myself. Other than instructing these Serbian people that they can do anything they want with me like slipping a poison into my drinks and food, I hope these governments (Serbia and United States of America) just wanted to project a shame on me, although the only thing I have been feeling for a long time was only the martyrdom.

GE dear Friends - it boggles my mind when esotherians use their knowledge and/or light to hurt others like I feel I have been hurt very badly. For example, tonight /Dec. 18th/ I can feel detrimental vibes in a low range which is not more than 1000 sq m. Not only in this regard, my reality is not what I intended it to be. Secondly, in Croatia, for example, people tend to develop a fraternal love for each other while in Serbia they promote separation and hatred. I hate to say it, if I was born in another country I would have been worthwhile more to the society. Even though they have their sacrificial scapegoats like certain guy named Mamic. I almost feel sorry for the guy. Here, I cannot fight to change anything, the things are so bad. To grasp me, my idea of life and purpose is not necessarily a family but a union/ a common law union. Whoever broke my family apart, whether it was Jovo Kapicic and the unknown secret government police-type institution under his control or over-budgeted US agency that got on my ass being an accomplished foreigner under suspicion - they did not cause me pains when they kicked me out of country and returned me to Serbia -- now I know that was a good thing for me not to live there anymore -- nor they accomplished a breakdown when they relieved me of all of my property ("which was a very democratic and liberal act" - afaic, it's pure anarchy) but because they ruined my family. Now they should leave me the fuck alone and mind their own crooked business. etc, etc. etc |/ .