before you judge me listen to my songs then say something.

SKUkiLL - Slowly Slowly

how do I know this hatred was artificially applied in serbia by those that run the show. nobody, and I mean nobody has ever given me the middle finger in fourteen fuckin’years that I have spent here. so it only means their hatred was not coming from the heart. only highly stupid people can be motivated to hate.

“Dan Courney, sir please pray for me as I m in the pit full of vipers.” this was the line I used to post personal feeling on my facebook page, and you can call dan Courney anything but the Satanist. Lost in translation – serbs were accusing me downright that I was calling in for some Satanists to help when I had shared mr. Courney's Jerusalem preaching videos when he was spat at profusely.

celebrities in the U.S. can never understand my trouble in serbia as they never walked the streets of their own towns. nobody ever saw Madonna jogging or in supermarket. in Belgrade I m swarmed over by thousands of angry and not so bright serbs that were told it was a free for all and that the punching bag for freehanded unloading of Serbian anger is me. there were at least three highly sophisticated attempts on my life today. I cannot discover what they were - in order not to give these morons more ideas, but it is not easy to kill a man and make it look like an accident I guess. You can give him a sickness that may last - before the man is actually down and that is what they are doing to me clandestinely. for so many potential Serbian attackers, you must have your eyes on your back all the time. you can never rest, never walk freely in belgrade serbia unless you are bonged out like many tourists are. this actual blog was the reason that so many tourists are coming to belgrade and it is a mad house at downtown right now. especially if everyone knows you. I m not only vastly unpopular but immensely infamous so much so that only God can help me by giving unfavorable karma down to Serbians and their kin so they can get the clear message through and through. No peace of mind whatsoever. for me things an’t gonna get any better than this. here is the rant: Julia Roberts please come to serbia and meet me and see what I m going through and doing to this people. am I doing anything or let alone anything nasty to give them a reason for hatred. jealousy has been the one. end rant, unquote. as far as Serbian haters, there are those who are full of it and then there are those who follow the drift. I say before you judge me listen to my songs then say something. I bet there are many more of those who would do something. hatred is so infectious and the crowd just cannot get enough.

I also met so many angry gypsies at kalenic (not caliente) market today. I overheard their hush hush talk that someone  will be going to kill me one day!!!!!!! imagine that. so I reckon the only way to deal with these serbs inclusive of gypsies etc is to form a gang and then let your friends do the talking for you. one day they would swarm up on these flea market sellers and beat the shit out of them, especially those that are giving me the hard time. I myself am helpless and cannot do nothing against the legions of mad Serbians. From where. From where they are coming from? I realized that in the bottom of every problem there must lie someone’s interest. I guess they were incited by art dealers and gallery owners who assume that I am taking over their finds and they want me out of any place where those finds may appear inclusive of flea markets. I assume it gets down to their soldiers, boots on the ground – art pickers – that deal immediately with all secondary garbage collectors majorly gypsies and these people are the ones who then blow smoke up the gypsy ass like Luther in 'the warriors' (flick, 1979). and it gets even crazier, but let us not tell it all off for now. get the fuck out of here!

Shalom al Yisrael

… oh well, it is only symbolic

I was not looking for any pro bono aegis from the deep blue but what’s up with that troubling dimple.

although not one of my favorite hosts, faruk has been there for ages which in itself calls for respect.

As every one of my former “crimes” has been exponentially blown out of proportions I assume the last one was sharing the daily spitting on Christians in Jerusalem youtube videos on my facebook timeline. I hate violence and ignorance in any way, shape or form and when Dan ‘the sheep stealer’ Courney shrieked: “if they sense fear they are going to get predatorial.:“it was like I had relived the similar situations happening to me in Belgrade serbia so I found myself very supportive of his defensive tactics to evade the attackers. And that’s all folks!

Im the artist, motherfuckers!!!! first of all.

many serbs are now simply ignoring me thinking that im saying things for self promotion, product placing myself inside my blog. their intention not to let me prosper in any way is making them reducing  their torture abruptly. they do not want to let me be famous even if the cost is to let me have my peace of mind back or at least it is what appears to me. in the last couple of weeks only the junkie looking types obviously the thieves were following me around in the stores trying to take attention away from them and bring the spotlight on me.

this evening I encountered a stupid junkie looking fuck from the European union (I m sorry I did not take a snapshot of him so you can estimate who he was, not a serb I would reckon). as he saw me entering the bus on autokomanda around midnight he (seated) immediately started heating up and shaking (bringing attention of others who were calm) and tapping with his fingers and producing a restless leg syndrome. he then took out a 2 liter juice bottle from his (dirt)bag and started sipping from it. it was all too well known behavior - as I experienced it many times before - and funnily enough when I was in London once I sat next to Jason Priestley (beverly hills 90210) nobody even recognized who he was. I remember he wore wheat nubuck leather boots. nobody paid attention to him. here in serbia every little piece of shit that comes from nowhere “knows” me. knowing full well that the guy was provoking I thought to him go choke up on it, and he started choking so he had to close his eyes as he was sipping. he did his little show because the other serbs were there and either he was scared that he was not more catholic than the Pope or he was just trying to agree with what he knew they were doing to me locally so in order to avoid problems during stay in serbia he thought he had to prove himself to be more catholic than the locals. this reaction and recognition also meant that my blog has never been more popular. other serbs noticed his extraordinary actions and started freaking out at first as they could not sort out where this guy was coming from – was he an American, did he know something they did not, what’s up now we were told to leave him alone and look at this guy, should we emulate?!!! - and after a while they started showing animosity (although a cold one resulting in applied ignorance – one guy was showing/signalling me the inside of his extended palm) not against the poor fuck but me!!!!! typical serbs. they will stab you in the back in no time.

the Serbian tendency is to betray and side with junkies even if that is what they are - junkies. it is the worst breed in the world according to my experience.

“I killed Bakari Henderson”

there are some serbs that did some crime recently however all eyes are on me. im pissed for having to be a scapegoat whereas those that killed the American college graduate who was beaten to death in Greece instantaneously became local heroes to many according to comments i was reading. for them, Im to blame. it’s their make-believe that many serbs want to extend to me and make me feel guilty for something I did not do. that is what they have been doing to me for 14 plus years and especially now – when there is a crime that escalates over all others – serpents are pushing their agenda hard trying to make me feel guilty of crimes the rest of serbia does with all their harassment, men made noises, defamation of character, slander, discrimination, etc, in other words they are painting a picture for the world: we serbs are a spotless bunch and here is the black sheep in our family. uh-uh, not like the rest of us, for shame!!!!!

and I say there has to be a legal mechanism that if you are born into one country and when that country or its people do not accept you as an equal member of the society, you can deny the ‘membership’ or any involvement thereof. in serbia, I am deprived of ability to start a family, and Id like to know how an interplanetary slandered guy gets a partner in life?!!! im afraid that when someone looks after me when I am 85 years old and when im finally relieved of “my guilts” I will not need that lambo in compensatory damages then. this waiting game is like a condemnation and it is quite debilitating. plus the guys that initiated Serbian hatred are quite wealthy and powerful, and then I m asking what happened to the guy that tried to steal radioactive bricks from vinca nuclear facility near belgrade last week in order to sell them locally, is he still working? who was going to buy these, as one can pulverize these bricks easily and use them against their enemies. this crime was swept under the carpet quickly. the united states was my alma mater and I feel totally insecure in serbia now since that alma mater is gone in this lifetime. I wished I could leave serbia and start again some place else but where – when there is no place like America who lost my trust for good – esp. since the serbs are all over the place, only the united states was kind of spacious enough for everyone. I feel as if im running low on game time for life. for me, situation is pretty much based upon a survival and not any kind of earthly pleasures or joys. They took it away. 

follow up on july 19th:  flat out lies
I resent for many citizens of serbia are jealous of me for creating this blog in english language when Im simply not in the same ballpark with them. in all these years I have not met many people from this neck of the woods that could put a simple sentence (in English) together, it is simply not their cup of tea. telling it like it is, this region sports useless English speakers - yugoslav leader tito was a very, very bad one, and literally all yugoslav leaders that followed him. if not life threatening, that thick accent is truly bothering. the latest discrediting attempt from the local cuisine of hatred is a phrase: copy and paste! (as it has been spread out much in the communication and comments all over the internet, dominating at facebook.) many locals are trying to say that Im copying and pasting or in other words stealing other people’s thoughts in my blog. apparently these idiots have never heard of american idioms. also I did not know that so many people thought the exact same things about serbian business in english. so much for these efforts. for all these years they are trying to sell their evil crap (about me) to the rest of the world (pangs of conscience must have been gripping them around the clock) and Im simply not a worthless piece of shit, hence this blog. hopefully, someone will see a book potential. 

follow up on july 20th evening around 20:30 PM : bus 26 : I entered at jovana bijelica street stop in brace jerkovica, belgrade, and traveled two more stops to ignjata joba str. stop. – among all those faces that looked like they wanted to douse me in gasoline and set me on fire, I saw a blondish girl in the back portion of a bus that recognized who I was as she could not stop smiling at me. I did not want to put her off her by much examining so i cannot put my head on the block and vouch that i would re-recognize her on the street tomorrow. however, this is the kind of loving person I need. I suspect she must be familiar with my blog. so if she ever reads this post she is welcome to find a way to contact me, as I could be able to put up with a smiling well meaning person like that, ever after. her smile was practically healing me. so mote it be. 

follow up on july 24th 2017 : 9: 35 AM : a water company man that read water meter in our home deliberately tried to direct a blue laser beam from the device attached to his wrist into my face and its blue ray went about erratically into the ground, in the air and onto my face as I was standing there two steps away preventing my dog from coming closer in contact with him to sniff him. was the serbia's water company man so lazy that he did not want to turn off the laser while the device was attached to his wrist or was he not aware that I would notice his deliberate actions trying to tag people with laser beam. another Serbian bastard, ready for anything that has evil attached to it committing crimes in the name of  Serbiandome - because this evil (sorry it is not a stupidity, there is no excuse) he was not taught in America but Serbia. let's drain the serbian swamp.

overblown me out of proportions, but you cannot do anything better when you are dealing with horrific idiots

give me some of that cofveve to get a hell out of here. there are so many idiots in serbia that you simply cannot win! not by any means, they think my life does not count. in addition, not a grain of common decency and so many bad things are happening that I lost a count and track of them long time ago. first of all, none of the people I know speaks a very good English so I cannot express my deepest feelings to anyone around let alone achieve my dream of becoming a hotelier and reality TV star. Imo, Serbian language is so inadequate and raw and it cannot sincerely express the Biblical love and the deepest human understanding and depths of mind. but it is good for hardened rhetoric and cursing people, the best curses are in Serbian. other than that, when the most courageous serbs are persecuting me as they are continuing with their provocative acts the remaining serbs in the vicinity like to study my reactions from the safe distance, like ostriches they extend their looks and I can clearly see - all eyes are on me when I am facing pressure. for them it is the spectacle. as today, a guy that sat in the bus and obviously did not want to get off soon, however as soon as he saw me getting off he then quickly got up coming forth strong from behind practically forcing himself onto me as I was getting out. yet another unpredictable serb bringing it on, he must have felt that I was insecure, and I surely was since I could've felt that danger was in the air. I admit to my comical appearance but that is not the reason to kill a man. many serbs are thus walking bombs, the ruthless killers in disguise, they can decide to come at me at anytime and they often do. many other serbs too, there are so many exits in public transportation but they mount themselves behind me trying to impress with mock-ups of strength and numbers. perverse ambitions and indeed they performed in the past as they clipped my wings…. serbs like to demonstrate dominance by putting into submission all those they do not like. poor souls! on the other hand not a slap on the Serbian wrist from my American friends.

JUDEN!!!!

tried counting to 83 million this morning. the reason why was that I came across a young german tourist yesterday evening (according to his looks and t shirt he was wearing) who practically tried to follow me around with man made noises same as serbs do. so I realized every fucking german tourist in Belgrade could be on my ass and the potential is 83 millions of them. it seems that serbs (their secret service) were able to instigate the entire world against me, germans especially. instead of throwing it over as pure slander this German bought it and how do i care about germans - i had no desire to visit germany ever.
I can imagine a picture of Serbian secret service agent handing out a photo of someone resembling me to anyone that entered Serbian border in conspiring voice:

g'morn all! JuDEn!!! Hier, das ist ein Jude! In all honesty, why a german or any other national would follow me around practicing man made noises in serbia? i can sense a premonition, i clearly see a vision of this guy that worked for the serbian secret agency (department for killing enemies of the state) now jumping around and yelling to his german secret service colleagues: fucking! fucking! did you read that??!!!!! he said fucking!!!!! fucking germans!!!!! you should off that guy. off him now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

instead, why do not foreign tourists that have a rising problem with me come in numbers to do something for human rights and protest against drivers (of almost every 3rd public transportation vehicle now that i enter to commute around Belgrade) who do something (it appears to me they drive intentionally with applied parking brakes) so these vehicles emit off bad burning brake smell as well as debris (on the photo you can see time and date, and example of one such serbian vehicle.): 

and clearly i do not complain about something like this cos i love animals, unleashed and unattended pit bull having a long ride in bus no. 26, a snapshot i took yesterday in belgrade:
when serbs do not like you they either say that you are a gypsy or jew, they denounce and shun you (from the serbian community) as that. and they do not like you when they are jealously mad like this secret agency guy (unfortunately a neighbor of mine) whose actions described herewith earlier instigated numerous pieces of serbian shit to spit at or by me:

the problems with those two (minority) communities is they are tightly knit and impenetrable. Jews have books reaching into their ancestry for generations. I cannot pretend that Im a jew. and even though I may look like one, in the past I discovered odd unfriendliness on the part of jews as if I had done something very wrong to them – my conclusion was that I was way too smart for their liking and thus posing a potential threat as an out of entity being. I wish I had jewish friends, it would have made my life more easier and I would have had some money too, but i opt to stay clear cos i have no idea what their problem with me may be. I would never pretend to be a gypsy (romani) because they are a completely different entity altogether – many smart men there too: Charlie chaplin, keith Richards (maybe), Pablo Picasso, yul briner, Michael caine, elvis Presley, irini merkouri, Andrea Pirlo, Gennaro Gattuso, Zlatan Ibrahimovic, Sinisa Mihajlovic… so I came to the point that I have not got no ethnic aegis whatsoever.  if i was only having the balls of steel, something. saw dusica spasic last night waiting for her bus ride at karadjordjev park bus stop, that was the only good thing i'd highlight as experienced recently.
i believe that serbs are cursed in the past, some powerful battle curse it may be, they are killing each other out, this country will implode, no unity whatsoever, it cannot be stopped for no existing smarts can overpower, and i may be the victim of this karmic round, so i just want to exit this serbian doomed train. 
july 26th: around 17:50 PM on the corner of podravska and vitanovacka street i spotted three slobodan milosevic times' looking muscular thugs huddled up and up to no good, the sort of that worked closely with serbian secret service offing people (enemies of the state) during 1980s and 1990s in belgrade and all over europe. they looked strung up as if onto something and on a task. they could not see me. the former serbian secret agents have been publicly bragging about it on television shows in serbia. according to close serbian president's associate there is a government within a government in serbia, and the visible one is helpless in preventing many things (Vladimir Djukanovic, Dobro jutro sa Djukom, tv show, this morning, my understanding). this just for the record of what george w bush administration had put me to in this ________ land (serbia)!!!!! i felt the immediate need of scorch i did not have ("Give me liberty, or give me death", "freedom to bear arms"). it is up to no good. fer shure. this country does not recognize anything that borders with normalcy, but the blood, dead bodies, and fear of ultimate terror is all it ever recognized. 

cos creating conflicts and problems, and maiming, hurting and harming people sounds like these guys righteous legacy. Id be fully ashamed and karmically concerned, instead they are trying to make me ashamed - of what  ?!!