regime "strikes back" …

just came back from downtown ...

by the behavior of serbian countrymen i vouch “the entire Belgrade” - oby – “the entire Serbia” were instructed to bother me. some things must have clearly struck a nerve as the persecution is back in full force; in addition, they often did it while trying to set up a smokescreen when the government was involved in some big time wrongdoing. what a bunch of lowly autistic assh*les. by the end of 2021 they were trying to involve me into the war with the mob that serbian regime's intelligence agencies control; we’ll see how it ends up for the regime and its satellites inclusive of the serbian mob lawyer B.B. and his associates who is involved on other case when i was physically attacked by the regime's official. now it has been the avalanche of lies and bull on my persona and trying to instigate revolt and reaction ... but ant gonna work out for them for sure.

 

unexpected rendezvous, july 2022, serbia

this evening I think there was an epic chance to meet my first two American female friends in this land where almost everyone believes that muscles are the big thing and that you can conquer everyone with muscles on steroids and ego trips. too many van dams and bruce lees acting around while almost every black dude from the hood would be shaking up the entire Belgrade by just stomping violently with their rigger boots on these grounds. although I myself would beg to disagree, someone known to me once said, there would be no real democracy in serbia before m4 sherman crew lands their feet in downtown belgrade. 

the problem that is messing up my brains is that I am still dependent on that love affair that never happened unless one counts what was going on in my head whereby I have been feeling loyal to that serbian lady that truly exists but has been unresponsive though – so I cannot personally relay to her, baby I just want foreign friends so I can discuss different topics than what is usually available on menu in Serbia – thus in starting conversations I am handicapped like a soccer goalkeeper that goes for the ball anywhere from half a minute to half an hour too late after the projectile had passed him by and entered the goal. now to those not in love this may sound like the silly load of bull, but Im in love and need more courage and tremendous divine help in that regard [to start conversations.]

it was around 11PM [7/21/2022] on dobracina str in Belgrade, when these two handsome projectiles were going up the street and coming toward me (wearing a surgical mask) and my friend (serbian doctor) as we were standing nearby the corner with simina street. I overheard American accent and stepped out so they could see me as they were approaching - only to witness two angelic faces go by, they were like the rays of sunshine in the gloomy and tired Serbian night. I wanted to say something but the second girl who saw my move and act in progress (that just was not happening) just smiled with her light understanding eyes … and I just kept looking after them. I am pretty sure that I did not stay in their minds so I could explode there in all and rich mellowness a little bit later as the Boss used to say, as the following day was my birthday – which would have been the best present whereby someone remembers you as a being, warmly and softly. I told my friend, did you see – them two, they were like the dream, American ladies who made their wrong turn somewhere towards these Serbian boondocks? Why did not I say something?
he replied grinning: no man, they were Russian. 

but then in the past he also advised: go ahead, have an ice cream - when i was down with a flu virus and my body temp was reaching 107 degrees. one helluva nasty serbian guy ... in serbia they find the point in just fucking with you, nothing else matters, which devalues your time spent here

someone sending out a warning, belgrade, serbia, july 18, 2022

my relative was killed in the same fashion when milosevic's off duty cop slammed into his vehicle head on, i am sure this small missile drifting into my lane and sideswiping me was customized head heavy for that purpose, so driver can perform a kamikaze mission without any consequences for him and co-driver; everything spells out legit. when shortly thereafter i gave chase he ran thru the red light. it appears the tag number was BG 1546 NK ... disclaimer: i am sharing this video as i waited for the police to respond for nearly three hours - lasting in heat of 112 degrees - which to me was suspect from the get-go only to hear them vouch twisting the knife that by default i was guilty too ...

you can never compare apples and oranges

when I lived in the U.S.A., two things were messing up with me - my name and p.o.b. … if I had wanted to, I could have easily changed name and never admit I was born in serbia, the land that in American mind rhymes with Russia somehow, so no one would ever assume that I was a foreigner. once someone discovered one or the other a trust in me was promptly lost. I like saving lives, I believe the friends you acquire by saving their lives in action or elsewhere would hardly ever disappoint. no, Im not talking about friends right now but about those I have no clue who or what they are - my Serbian countrymen. on my return to Serbia, I discovered the cruel fact, Serbia was even worse off to a serbian born man than america was ever to a foreigner. I am pretty sure that the case similar to mine has not been covered by any legal precedence by far, involving public exposition whereby you were slandered by word of mouth to the degree that you could not seek satisfaction at any court. you have no clue who started it, but can only imagine that it was allowed on the level of one state – American or Serbian, make a wild guess. so you never had a chance to clear up your name and a number of people has been trying to harass and bully you in public. and these are the low lives, cretin minds most of the time, but everyone else has been involved, there is no rule. especially these days, the amount of serbian venom that I have to put up with is enormous. i call it temptation, Gxd must be witnessing this, because of the sole amplitude of evil involvement. I remember when the volunteers were going down to the draw to bring water to thirsty men during the siege of Reno Hill what solidarity took place there among the American soldiers. by contrast if the same situation and need would have been coinciding in the present-day Serbia, my fellow countrymen would have been adding salt into the water and be laughing about their creativity in the same fashion they are trying to get to me today as they had overheard that I had put out some poetry these days and that my heart has been bleeding.