I am in code black in this serbian valley of death … roger that

to be honest it is not me who is trying to escalate these crazy and dangerous ideas, actions, and thoughts; it is someone powerful in serbia who needs to create drama but the things are obviously happening - and thus they call for the reaction

secrecy confers tremendous status upon regular citizens who are trying to maim to become national heroes

I mean my spirit is currently set back in time and I live in america of 1970s now and just for being different I am felt, singled out, and hated to death in Serbia. just out today on my birthday I took three large sips of mineral water at the restaurant near kalenic market and felt like toilet cleansing liquid was mixed inside. I felt burning in my throat. I immediately glanced over towards the waitress who was cuddling up with her boyfriend in the corner and it seemed to me he had a murderous “Che Guevara” grin on his face looking over towards my direction but not directly at me. but do I have to be concerned if I feel that something ant right [at all]? was she made do it? was the waitress (made) an accomplice? she did not feel too shining bright to me? now I feel dizzy and wasted … everything would have been different if she opened a bottle before me … why serbian waiters are coming up with already opened bottles … why they do not open them in front of you or let you do it … what if they have a grudge against you – if you are infamous and everybody knows you? … I do not feel that much trust … it makes you feel anxious and nervous even if everything else is okay, and now it wasn’t with how I felt … in the country where you get only a couple of years for plain murder will they feel any responsibility for poisoning and incapacitating you in some degree? that is only a few weeks of house arrest and a title of national hero if the victim was someone the nation hates. that is if you overcome all obstacles [inclusive of legal ones] so good luck trying to be the sheep winning its case in the land of wolves. it feels like many people in Serbia were given a secret go to go ahead and get me [not just get to me] … just put something heavy in his drink … it will be classified … it feels like that … as the order was given from the tops … gritty reality ... SOMEONE must know something if so many people are involved … sometimes I have facts, sometimes I do not … but haika [another serbian word for it] feels brutal and organized … today I brought the bottle with me and the water or something else is still inside … I will set it on fire and see if it burns, plain water would not keep up the flame if there ant no chemicals in it … I won’t mention the name of the place since this morning I saw the rogue cop who gave me the ticket out of spite few years ago waiting in line in the bakery [probably buying bourek] that belongs to the chain I mentioned last month … it is like giving these people the business when you complain of their [possible] wrongdoings … everything is set to appear upside down in serbia ...

 

feeling high, trapped, and damaged like popeye doyle and beyond ... kkkkk--krrrrrrrrr ... repair not possible ?

july I2, 202I; belgrade, serbia. when st. sava hospital for treatment of cerebrovascular diseases was placed in the news several days ago, I had a premonition that something bad was going to happen [perhaps to someone's brain] and sure enough super powerful damaging chemicals that were thrown into the car air system were so harsh and harmful that I have been losing mind, they are still active and I can describe them as --kk0--krrrr brain splitting chemicals as if my brain was split into two halves. they taste, smell, and feel like krrr-0rrr-krrr, my throat has been under attack, heart has been teetering, mind altered with intense visual hallucinations and distortions, depersonalization, auditory distortions, altered perception of time and body images, was expecting cardiac and respiratory arrest. the images of st. sava news report do not escape mind. something is go9ng on up there, in my head. it feels huge and metallic. the portion of serbia that does not forgive – though they mixed it up again [on purpose ?] – i shall say R.....t - floor workers as culprits – immense. unprovoked hatred in serbian eyes cannot be hidden - doggones an't no bygones .. assessment of s/s is: appalling and disastrous. pls id effective responses, if p. and I do not kid ... ... ...