I held his hand firmly to let him know in his blindness,
that he had a friend- the author of this blog
I M WRITING THIS BECAUSE I HAD A DREAM THAT I WOULD GET MURDERED HERE BY
THOSE I COULD NOT RECOGNIZE. I CANNOT GO FORWARD WITH EXPLAINING HOW IT WAS
DONE IN A DREAM, ALTHOUGH IT IS A ONE WELL KNOWN WAY. IN ADDITION, WHEN I CAME FORWARD WITH
EXPOSING LASER ATTACKS THERE WERE MANY COPYCATS AFTERWARDS.
However, not all dream books agree on the same meaning.
Dream interpreters believe that an attempt on dreamer’s life is a terrible
dream foretelling real danger.
Fear of pain
The dream of assassination denotes that the dreamer is afraid of violence and
painful experiences. His unconscious is afraid of emotional wounds.
Fear to feel pain
In the dream you were attacked in order to be killed but escaped successfully then this dream
signifies that you really afraid to be hurt and you always run away from
difficult situations.
Be ready if be attacked in order to be killed –
This dream warns of dangers and worries, you can not overcome all the problems
without any damage;
This blog should be considered a positive critique of Serbian society -
no Serb suffered any damage because of me. On the contrary I feel not the citizen of
Serbia, I feel as if being held helpless in the cesspool covered with shit from
head to toes. Cesspool here sounds like my reality.
For example when earlier I said Jebem Vam srpsku majku or Fuck your serbian
Mother (the usual swear word in Serbia) I did not say that to the entire
Serbian nation of course but to those people that were molesting me at the
moment as I had posted their pictures thereto even though somebody was trying
to extend it further and use it against me to spark further violence and additional hatred from serbs. at any
rate it would have been easier for me to erase that post but I did not. the
only victim in this relationshit was me as
I lost my family
I was getting beaten
I was forced to Serbia
My eyes were handicapped
Only my eyes were wanted gauged.
Only my future has got no future in Serbia.
Only me has got less assets and money considering the ability and natural
gifts.
Even when I mentioned names these guys were never in jeopardy, neither
their families nor their lives, only me.
So what is the problem with this necrophilic hatred in Serbia. serbs are
obsessed with death in some primitive tribal way. it is necrophilic culture.
some of them enjoy inflicting pain and disturbing, that is my personal
experience. serbian girls are not polished enough because they go for the fluff
instead of substance. i did not have female friend in years as im
bothered to try because i was handicapped by what surrounds me here in this country,
hatred and animosity which go with impunity. I would need to have head or body
camera, like cops do, to document everything that happens. Serbs are playing
macho game even after I had announced that I was helpless that is why I got beaten
in the first place cos I did not want to hit back. It is the bloody hands on George W Bush' administration. Perhaps if I hit back I
would have knocked the guy out and save myself, but I did not. Being exposed in
this fashion like a movie or rock star without money to justify this way
of exposed living and to gain an inch of decent living equals to death sentence. I consider myself being in the bottom ranked by Serbian standards although I have some possessions that do not mean anything here where only cash money means something. Thank you George W, thank you America.
After I was stabbed in the back by those I considered friends it is hard to regain trust in friends of all sorts.
I say necrophilic hatred because when one dog bites into other dog’s flesh
he does not go for one bite, he goes for the kill. People here want my blood, my
eyes gauged. It is not a joke that makes them happy, it is a one sick necrophilic obsession. They would not be satisfied if they would just take an ounce of my
blood, or just one eye out. I had been let to bleed for years yet noone cares.
The pressure seems to be only intensifying and more people seem eager for getting
involved in this bloody game that goes against me. Roger Federer is gentleman. Novak Djokovic
is gentleman. But what are these Serbs attacking me? What was George W Bush Administration
for betraying my family falling down for the false rumors and letting me bleed?
If the hate would be all, it would be yet manageable to some point. Yet
some Serbs of various age are itching for physical contact and consequences as
if they were instructed or ordered “into action”. It is very difficult to explain
what is going on, but Im definitely under some sort of attack or public
harassment at least. It is a dire situation that bears and takes consequences. Yet
noone seems to be responsible.
Update on March 2nd 2016: As I was going home
from shopping at maxi store on vojvode stepe blvd a person that was passing by
either spat at me or made a spitting noise, my head was down (i walk with my head down in belgrade to avoid conflicts that may erupt promptly) and as I turned
around to take a look at this person, he was already 15 feet away. What could I
have done, my hands were tied with grocery bags, I had a rucksack too; to throw
everything down and chase him down? No, I got used to such harassment in Serbia
- this one goes out to George W and his administration as well as Serbian
government.
update on march 2nd 2016, evening: news in serbia travel quickly as the copycat thing happened this same evening around 10PM downtown.
something is wrong with serbs as they are
truly enjoying and thriving on my fear. Esp. now that I had exposed it, numerous serbs are coming
at me trying to hurt me emotionally and physically. Some of them line up when I
have to exit public transportation vehicle looking like they are positioning
themselves either to hit or kick me from behind. these are terrible and the
worst possible situations I have ever been in my life. in any normal country
not anyone should be in any fear of other citizens like here. This is a huge
mess and dog eats dog reality. I definitely do not feel like I belong here
neither I feel like the citizen of Serbia. I feel like the person without
homeland. I am in terrible fear what if God forbid I come for the medical care
and into the hands of the like Serbian people that I meet every day; I have
terrible visions and fears concerning that possibility.