just imo

i must believe that those that 

had sown the wind of havoc 

in my life (1995)/2002-2014 

have reapen the whirlwind 

                                                                                             in theirs. 

only an animal can ruin man's family. 

i have no doubts that i was framed and 

victimized by the likes of alonzo harris 

which are deeply rooted in the american 

society and justice system. nobody gained 

any advantage by bringing me down; 
just the opposite. 
thence america nevermore.

Cannot blame Serbs for anything. Imagine if you entered cage full of snakes or filled with wild life – lions and bears. It would have been your dire fault. I can only find that my ancestors made a dire mistake of ever coming to live in Serbia, the land where there are no rules and where playing dirty and back-stabbing are the ways of life. Where - and it is my opinion - the flawed education sucks and where there is practically no real education, proper manners and cultural senses. The only equalizer around here is raw power. I often feel as if crucified by the band of jihadists. I admire Christians who are openly and sincerely showing their love for Christ. I feel it is still a no-no in Serbia. Even though, I felt excited when I saw Argentinian team entering the field and every one of them was crossing, I favored Germans. Even though I support the difference between church and state, I wish I was born in some Catholic country where nobody would sanction you for making cross signs. Or some place where everybody would love you. Some place where they would let you live. Where they would not mindlessly harass, ignore and hate, doing everything to prevent one while inhibiting anything and everything that’s different. I do not like Serbia. It is the European equivalent of Taliban in my mind. I wish manners of the West where most gentlemen are freemasons ruled Serbia somehow. I think I would make more friends among the rednecks of America or in some peasant places like Bolivia or Moldavia than here. Serbia is pure evil pure and simple imo. 

cannot illustrate because i am surrounded by problems of all sorts. from jerkoffs beeping car sirens while passing by my residence (these cowards whose minds project me as a pushover would have not done the same there where they would anticipate a brutal reaction) to no family. from laser beams beamed down 24 - 7 into my windows from the highrise (some other buildings involved off and on too; my point: it's not a conspiracy, it's a playbook) where lives the former director of the serbian military counterintelligence - there is a very bright high powerful light going off right now and it is impossible to look at that building at vojvode stepe blvd. # 141 - which is impermissible, sick, and totally unfair to striking fear into potential friends and soulmates. my entire life is a failure and serbia imo is the only problem. i think in the right country i would have been the right man. i think the entire serbian state is rotten to the core and no overhaul will ever fix it. 
this morning 28/07/2014, around 04:30 several of these clowns set up an ambush and sniped me with something high powerful most likely as i was entering my street - sitting in a wait in semilit small car (was it only a decoy? while they were in unlit car) - so my eyes hurt as hell. there was another very suspicious vehicle, skoda fabia with 'securitas company' marks, positioned at vojvode stepe blvd. as i was making this driving round, both in and out, most likely a surveillance to alert executors when i was coming back.
i've been hunted down - july 29th 2014:
today, as i passed slavija square going toward autokomanda square in belgrade, i came across a large black suv with tinted windows coming from the opposite direction (looked like an unmarked government or special operations agency vehicle); codriver was flashing what seemed like a bright red dot - a laser toward me. felt totally unsafe and hunted. it happened so quickly i was unable to put down it's licence plates and am ready to take a polygraph test over it. i am not sure if this was the rogue faction of serbian secret service or someone willing to push the envelope even further in order to steer more commotion throughout my life and more turbulence in my serbian existence. i am sure even though serbs are doing nasty things to me, it does not do them any justice to continue doing it since i am doing what i have to - posting my sincere reactions herewith.

sea of hurt

when i saw this poor kid i immediately connected his image with my serbian existence realizing how pain and disappointment can propel you to certain emotional states. the only difference is, i am not crying over a football game. while some serbs openly compare my serbian existence to the loss of brasilian team and future life of the brasilian players in brasil saying may God have mercy upon them, many of those that are not attacking me in serbia are watching my every move trying to see for themselves what seems to be real truth / however, they cannot handle the outcome whereby they cannot find secrets they were looking for and i never heard anyone in serbia saying leave this guy alone, all i ever heard was let's go get him?!! serbs, like hypnotized already made their verdicts whereby i feel that any serbian day i could be the goner; or at the very least they just keep on messing my life, producing more hatred, and we are never going to be even because of the harm they are doing to me by judging and punishing me on lies someone told them. thus they are only unjustly persecuting the righteous man and it is a blessing for me but disastrous tribulation for them. it seems God put them on trial for most serbs believe they are just and victimized while in fact they are doing it to me.

since the can of worms is open and i have been wrongfully exposed to the fullest extent, my position enables me to have a highly dangerous reactive relationship with the rest of humanity while feedback shows how evil and stupid men can be. if there was no higher force i guarantee you that i would not be alive today. that is my experience. believe it or not, we are not alone. if there is no God i would have been eaten alive. i cannot understand why some smart men do not believe in God. meanwhile, this environment has become too toxic for me…that someone calls you the satan (labeling someone satan is almost as sending a demonic green light in an unorthodox manner and sponsoring a criminal act: go get this guy, get this satan, kill him; and i witnessed this being said to me by even the spanish tourists in belgrade which implicates either cia or catholic church involvement; thus i believe my problem is broader than serbia) while showing the signs of utter dislike and serving your meal at the same time (pretending to be nice at the moment of serving but entirely opposite as soon as turned back on the table, making noises, talking shit etc which makes these cooks and waiters eligible to slip something in and mishandle food), i am totally sickened by the experience. but won’t name the city, place, anything due to the respect toward the people i was with that really wanted to make me feel comfortable, but alas. would only mention a bad case of heartburn (poisoning?) and herpex simplex. is this all because the traitors are held high in serbia? but would the traitor bet half of a standard serbian salary on novak djokovic if he was truly “the” traitor”?

why would i expose myself thereby to three potential heart attacks while watching Novak’s prenatal cramps on the court? would an un-Serb vouch for Djokovic? in the end, i felt sorry for Roger, he cried too. hater i am not. let's face it i am not a serb hater = they hate me. a posteriori, there is no difference in the amount of torture that americans and serbs can do to one human being. these two countries remind me of each other a lot like siblings; i am talking - figuratively, of whoever is in charge of torture management there. it seems as if motherfuckers cannot forgive those 2 tons of cocaine i smuggled earlier and eight individuals i offed. they truly wanna off me back now even though i am on my ultimate watch, still taking serbian punches from those calling me satan and messing up my meal orders and those ordering them to destroy me in any way possible and it is truly happening. this amount of hatred is simply unbelievable!

update on july 13th: i went to get my last shot for nerve arm pain and felt that nurse i saw for the first time there (krivolacka str. health center) was behaving very awkward and weird while giving it to me and afterwards. then i thought if she was one of those that dislike me in general or if she was related to any of the hardcore serbian haters, could had she criminally transmitted some disease to me as i was not able to see what she was actually doing (was the needle new and unused for example). in serbia they can get away with murder easily.
i came to conclusion that i would not worry this much
even if i was treated by traditional serbian
adversaries in any of their countries, such as croatia.
i believe i would have felt much safer and more human there.
in serbia sometimes (or often times) i feel as if dealing with vile demons whose only goal is to eliminate me.
couple of days ago, on july 1st, as i was driving down vitanovacka street by the group of ditch digging workers one of them spat into my window. then i realized it was very intentional as the next day some guy from this group came before my vehicle and started taunting me to the point i felt forced to take a photograph, he cannot be seen in it as he hid to the left ready to punch me while i remained seated in the vehicle.