HOW DOES TARGETING OF INDIVIDUALS WORK IN THE HOMELAND OF NOVAK DJOKOVIC?
that is the worst punishment one can get for molestation irrevocably changes life. "it's a different type of death... it's the death of who the molested one could have been."
plus you cannot say "no" to these thugs: to see and hear a bit of the same inhuman and stubborn obstinacy i am dealing with, click here belgrade, serbia, year 2002...lemmy says 'do not throw shit on the stage i do not like it.' a few seconds later somebody throws something on the stage again. guitar player says: the show is over. somebody has thrown a piece of glass like that. we are done. lemmys says: 'why why stupid motherfucker.' and in my case this goes on and on because i live here...
many here just do not or do not want to understand this. his experience are just numerous flashbacks for me. but the random hostile acts are incomparable to sustained targeted harassment lasting 12+ years. they have the agenda and target fixation (as the enemy must exist!), some of them are veterans of Balkan wars as well as gang turf wars and the major targets (the likes of George W and Bill Clinton are not readily accessible) so they have to unleash their fury, anger and deploy skills against somebody at hand who in their view symbolizes or loves Western ideals. in other words the second best gets his ass kicked instead of those who they really want. i have been the scapegoat.
furthermore, around 10PM this evening i got a skype call from art collectors t. family that are currently vacationing in croatia. after i spoke politely with family's head honcho mr. d. for about 15 minutes on supposedly the best of terms telling them that i can barely hear them, so they knew that volume on my earphones was maxed out as we talked about it particularly, when we got out of topics and conversation was nearing the end his wife started banging things into their end of the mic making terrible deafening noises (most likely by crashing dishes and silverware together) on their side of the line that i immediately felt sorry for accepting their call. i know what is intentional shit and what is not (when someone is trying to hurt you, you can recognize that something has not just fallen, human made noise just goes on, and if i was not sure i wouldn't be writing here - as to why, i translate this behavior as "they believe they are the ultimate untouchable art kings" of serbia who have just expressed jealousy over my 1% of success, which i do not even claim but i know it is there, how dare i do something plausible that some people even speak about it; they have to put me where i belong in the sleazy way; low; that is it). mr. d. seemed amused hearing that i was upset asking me - as if to put some salt on injury - hey, what has happened you do not want to talk to us any more?!! - i mean... wtf is wrong with all these effin people. and all this on the eve of my birthday which was "supposed" to be the most relaxing day. i know it from experience, this shit will bother me for at least a week. but the consequences last.
this entire situation prevents me to talk to my son, the commitment that I have intentionally avoided for years as I cannot lie to him that I have been okay in Serbia for my “countrymen”. poor child. I’ve been pretty fucking far from okay. trying to explain my situation would be meaningless as gang stalking in general was designed not to be believed and easily explained. what was all that about lasting 13+ years?! the explanation would border with psychosis then. it is a similar experience to witnessing UFOs, there are no points of reference. the gangstalking was meant to be the type of psychological and also in my case corporal punishment because serbs breached what meant to be only psychological harassment and they went into physical contact and maiming, probably on their own – I have brought up many examples of that. even though I believe that without the united states’ silent approval the things could have not happened to me, this is the country that I feel the strongest affiliation to (for all that I had been through I definitely do not and cannot feel anything Serbian), and since someone told me that in times of great distress and duress its flag should be flown upside down, this is how i do it in this case for I am in the state of great distress and under great duress. who teach kids from a young age that it is not normal to feel bad about themselves and that the shame is forbidden for whatever reason or unless you are very, very rich. on the other side, serbs are racing to exterminate each other while trying to find faults in others that do not exist in people. for example in the usa, many people made their careers because of their looks, barbara streisand and al molinaro to name a few. if you are not rich or do not come off of the rich and powerful background, this seems to be the mission impossible in serbia, where you will be the target of taunting if you have the smallest and most insignificant deformity on your body. in which case everyone will be competing to point their fingers onto somebody else to distract attention from their own personality and / or body which may exist in their imagination only. i must highlight this never ending serbian taunting contest because i have come across the unknown people in public that are trying to make me feel bad about myself while doing exactly the same thing explained here. it is only the portion of organized gangstalking in my case. this is very different from the prejudice (Poles are stupid, Irish are drunkards, Italians are greaseballs, Serbs are crazy and potential security threat to the system) that exists in the US as it is unfolding on the personal level. in america it is not about looks it is about who is more powerful. even with stereotypes, it is always them cops are pigs, but never Sgt. so and so is a pig. I may say that in my case I was put in a situation wherein I could have "enjoyed" the best of both worlds. felt blame for where i came from in the united states (with chicken hawks who kept repeating over and over again: this guy is a threat to national security, this guy is a threat to national security...) in addition to inflicted pain on personal level in serbia for my looks that i had been completely satisfied with so far and had to reassess them many times over after attacks occured. it seems, once you fall in the public eye, that they both, in america and serbia, are constantly exploiting possibilities to make you feel as shit. while i am dying to belong to some society and enjoy its solidarity and do some good for some country. here in serbia i am neither accepted nor welcome. some pieces of shit are treating you as if a piece of shit, day in day out. any good reason why?!! in thirteen plus years - no clue. the only logical explanation - they were handled. if i'd asked them what was all that about their minds would not know. wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
How will they leave me alone?! Serbian sport stars do not listen to the U.S. POLICE, hello, how will the ordinary Serbian people accept my pleas to stop ruining my already ruined life, stop harassing me, stop gang-stalking me, stop maiming me, stop brain-raping me? as i was watching it appeared to me as if he was gonna deck the cop. there were comments on the part of serbian speaking audience such as "do not even talk to him, fist nail him..." while even the officer's name Cooper was mentioned numerous times as if someone was asking for some public lynching. like i would ever care for someone acting like a prick (might had been very justly so) but i do now, as the serious unjust things are happening to me and i can sense what is right and what is wrong. Click here to watch the video and let me scream out loud


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