Thursday, July 14, 2016


by publicly exposing someone to unlimited harassment 
(unlimited concerning time, manners and means) 
that is the worst punishment one can get for molestation irrevocably changes life. "it's a different type of death... it's the death of who the molested one could have been." 
plus you cannot say "no" to these thugs: to see and hear a bit of the same inhuman and stubborn obstinacy i am dealing with, click here belgrade, serbia, year 2002...lemmy says 'do not throw shit on the stage i do not like it.' a few seconds later somebody throws something on the stage again. guitar player says: the show is over. somebody has thrown a piece of glass like that. we are done. lemmys says: 'why why stupid motherfucker.' and in my case this goes on and on because i live here...
many here just do not or do not want to understand this. his experience are just numerous flashbacks for me. but the random hostile acts are incomparable to sustained targeted harassment lasting 12+ years. they have the agenda and target fixation (as the enemy must exist!), some of them are veterans of Balkan wars as well as gang turf wars and the major targets (the likes of  George W and Bill Clinton are not readily accessible) so they have to unleash their fury, anger and deploy skills against somebody at hand who in their view symbolizes or loves Western ideals. in other words the second best gets his ass kicked instead of those who they really want. i have been the scapegoat.
last minute: last night around 01:00 (july 19th 2016) i heard a commotion at my residence and
my dog let an alerting call suggesting more interest than alarm in the situation.
so i went out to investigate and at that moment, in this morning hour, as i was approaching
someone started coughing as if to alert [others]. when i got to the street i saw a black VW taking off rapidly.
i quickly returned although i am not sure of the person who was notifying others went into the vehicle or remained somewhere else.

Serbia, 7/21/2016: all I can say if those I had mentioned can motivate the entire country to spit at me, why they can’t do some greater harm. I m coming and some cars with deeply tinted windows obviously aren’t there waiting just to make me scared, some slight commotion goes on inside and I know something else goes on. what exactly I do not know but I know they are up to no good. If they can smuggle tons of heroin and cocaine into Serbia, why can’t organized crime do some greater harm to me than just making man made noises?! I think the happy times of gang stalking only are now over. I come home I experience eyes burning and pain like the entire team of those stalkers with military grade lasers was out to get me. I cannot eat out in public restaurants because of the same exact fear after what had happened to that cop today in Columbus ohio, where they put pieces of glass into his burger. these are the ones on top of the “smaller” things that are regularly going on like today around 19:10 hours when I entered store "Desk computers" in Čika Ljubina 18-20 - center city Belgrade, where I was promptly “welcomed” by really unfriendly sales person who then body checked me from behind with violent force and in highly provoking manner pinning me to the desk in front of me, in order to make a passage for him without even asking me to move or step aside. when I looked at him to see what goes on and to say something i saw that he held a scalper in his hand. that really pissed me off but i did not say a goddamned word. i bet this person would have been happier if he took at least one slice of my flesh with that scalpel that is for sure. 
furthermore, around 10PM this evening i got a skype call from art collectors trajkovic family that are currently vacationing in hvar, croatia. after i spoke politely with daniel trajkovic for about 15 minutes on supposedly the best of terms telling them that i can barely hear them, so they knew that volume on my earphones was maxed out as we talked about it particularly, when we got out of topics and conversation was nearing the end his wife started banging things into their end of the mic making terrible deafening noises (most likely by crashing dishes and silverware together) on their side of the line that i immediately felt sorry for accepting their call. i know what is intentional shit and what is not (when someone is trying to hurt you, you can recognize that something has not just fallen, human made noise just goes on, and if i was not sure i wouldn't be writing here - as to why, i translate this behavior as "they believe they are the ultimate untouchable art kings" of serbia who have just expressed jealousy over my 1% of success, which i do not even claim but i know it is there, how dare i do something plausible that some people even speak about it; they have to put me where i belong in their sleazy way; low; that is it). daniel seemed amused hearing that i was upset asking me - as if to put some salt on injury - hey, what has happened you do not want to talk to us  any more?!! -  i mean... wtf is wrong with all these fucking people. and all this on the eve of my birthday which was "supposed" to be the most relaxing day. i know it from experience, this shit will bother me for at least a week. but the consequences last. 

this situation prevents me to talk to my son, the commitment that I have intentionally avoided for years as I cannot lie to him that I have been okay in Serbia for my “countrymen”.  poor child.  I’ve been pretty fucking far from okay. trying to explain my situation would be meaningless as gang stalking in general was designed not to be believed and easily explained. what was all that about lasting 13+ years?! the explanation would border with psychosis then. it is a similar experience to witnessing UFOs, there are no points of reference. the gangstalking was meant to be the type of psychological and also in my case corporal punishment because serbs breached what meant to be only psychological harassment and they went into physical contact and maiming, probably on their own – I have brought up many examples of that. even though I believe that without the united states’ silent approval the things could have not happened to me, this is the country that I feel the strongest affiliation to (for all that I had been through I definitely do not and cannot feel anything Serbian), and since someone told me that in times of great distress and duress its flag should be flown upside down, this is how i do it in this case for I am in the state of great distress and under great duress.
when one individual is singled out in cowardly fashion there will be many lowly cowards and lowlifes crawling out from all over the place to strike from many sides.  in that regard, there is an unprecedented concentrations of smile (would be) killers in Serbia which is a messed up place to be for someone in my skin and shoes. they do not understand anything, and nothing can be explained to them, they cannot control themselves and doing harm is the only way they wanna go. this is why I no longer go out to have some fun.

How will they leave me alone?! Serbian sport stars do not listen to the U.S. POLICE, hello, how will the ordinary Serbian people accept my pleas to stop ruining my already ruined life, stop harassing me, stop gang-stalking me, stop maiming me, stop brain-raping me? as i was watching it appeared to me as if he was gonna deck the cop. there were comments on the part of serbian speaking audience such as "do not even talk to him, fist nail him..." while even the officer's name Cooper was mentioned numerous times as if someone was asking for some public lynching. like i would ever care for someone acting like a prick (might had been very justly so) but i do now, as the serious unjust things are happening to me and i can sense what is right and what is wrong. Click here to watch the video and let me scream out loud

"Gang stalking (rude people in crowds that appear and insult the individual, using both verbal and non-verbal communication). Having 20 people, or more, strategically placed to for example look with a hateful look at the Targeted Individual. They are all strangers, they are all rude. They appear every time the TI is outside, and it can take many different expressions. Sometimes it looks like they have some kind of scheme and the harassment follows a pattern, and when it achieves a certain stage, they reset themselves and it startes all over again."
the improved modification of gangstalking they came up with in Serbia  was that they included thousands of serbian citizens into the targeting scheme so for me it was not 20 people placed strategically over one place at one time, it was rather the 20 unknown people swarming from anywhere i went to all of the time. for example, everyone that knows me can put their life on the line that i would not run away from the police officer but this serbian "bad seed", this crooked cop - slavko cvetic - did not only make a dick move by lying and charging me with false offenses, he even went far enough to testify before the judge that i led him on a chase whereby he was pursuing me with his motorcycle. of course it did not happen and it was my word against his, and of course i lost, it is now three months of driver's license suspension, a lot of points on my driving record and a hefty fee. i am sure that he is one of them and this paper below is a little bit of proof, black on white, that certain unjustifiable things are going on. if asked to go through, this guy would not pass his polygraph test. and after i had posted on this blog about his drinking habits while on duty and in uniform i believe that was the moment when my politically (and otherwise) powerful neighbor vojkan milosevic (the first one i saw doing it blatantly in a highly provoking fashion) came forward triggering the spitting pattern that was soon adopted and utilized by many serbians (completely unknown to me) that were jumping on the targeting feeder and spitting at me. that created more of an unsafe and unfriendly environment for me while i am also in fear for exposing and whistle-blowing about his actions, no mater what he said about it, i would not take his word for it even at oath, i am sure he is all about the revenge which is slowly cooking and goes on. i must admit however that at that time i was not fully aware that i was the victim of organized targeting hence that post entry sounds more like a rant. when i think of the powers to be that i am up against i fear for my life, in another daily example (from today), it is not the feeling of complete uneasiness when i am passing by the group of local kids in the park and when i turn my back to them, i hear one of them shouting to the others, NOOOO PLEASE DO NOT DO IT, NO, DO NOT DO IT, NOOOO, and i did not know what they were trying to do behind my back, i did not turn around, i only knew that i was approx. 12 yards away feeling it was something entirely imminent targeting me for who i am, something very awkward, something beyond a rock that will come behind me smashing my skull....there is no way these people can regain my trust in this lifetime, neither they are trying to. 

the very next day post follow up (7/15/16) : as I was talking to a neighbor standing on the pavement of vojvode stepe bvld. unmarked khaki cruiser with deep tinted windows and two detachable roof beacons pulled up right next to me as if to see what was I gonna do – it was my immediate thought as there was enough space all around to park elsewhere. so the windows were like a feet away from my eyes and I could not see anything inside. i thought it was some braggadocio move from whoever it was inside, I did not bother to take their tag numbers, I would not have flipped a coin whether or not they would harm me as I was sure – “you guys want me to post about this, now, is that a fact? oh no, you an’t gonna see me posting, not this time!” but as my eyes really hurt now – 18:44 PM – i've got a new floating object that really messes up vision in my left eye and I wonder what were they really up to and what their real motive was. all I am thinking about is the revenge on the part of authorities’ syndicate and friends of those that felt not threatened but whose egos were touched by the mention herewith.

Saturday, July 09, 2016

The Genetics of Novak Djokovic and the Serbian God of Hatred

many people in serbia act as if they are starring in some Hollywood movie in real time. they dress as if they are preparing for the set and act as if cameras are rolling and they are the center of world’s attention. many here, i m positive, surely believe christiano ronaldo (small capitals mean nothing in this blog) was born with his current looks. they got the urge to be as bad-ass as they can be as it’s, I assume, a part of their imagined role. i hate being here, truly afraid of everything because i am unsuspecting and these people are always into some action that can end badly for their target. even today, in the midst of racial tensions in the usa, i would rather be in compton than here. there I know what to expect. In all honesty, I will never go to the united states again (i cannot stand being delusionally perceived as a foreign merc, may even be the commander of foreign troops paid by the imf and/or hired by cia, while in serbia i am usually experienced and ignored as the twisted traitor, non-patriot and american spy for i cannot pretend to hate nobody), but these are some of my thoughts with regards to serbia. unfortunately, there is no way I can start off with a clean slate in Serbia as someone invested a lot of effort into nurturing of the serbian hatred which separates me and them from normalcy. obviously, despite my stupid looks, someone has overestimated my abilities quite a lot (not serbs who let you go as they believe stupid looks equals stupid mind, but not without a little fun first, harass the disabled, period!), i call it wasted time unless they found it in the Bible and the cards that I was the player. wrong! whatever they came up with, i m a good man, either way, i hurt nobody whatsoever, unless provoked tremendously (got used to even that now). now a bit, a few sentences of rambling rant.... they have got the power but I pity them. they are jealous even if i fart. i just farted and they said it was a phony fart. they were jealous of my family too, that is why they destroyed it. i believe they initially labeled me as the enemy in perpetual making but the lack of my ambition will make them better people even though they would prefer to stay unchanged and paranoid. they cannot own me because they are scared of what they know - the wrong they did is not repairable. they will crumble from within because i won't answer their intolerance neither with the same nor with love. their intolerant actions were all proven to be wrong and backfiring. this will only continue.... as if i had created them and came around to see how is my creation doing, and will it destroy me? stupid. very much.... so forth and so for it. i was not talking about the serbs and that was my rant. a rant is a rant. 
around 17:00 hrs, as i was walking today on july 10th nearby the Faculty of FON, a serbian square-headed motherfucker, one of many who act as if they own the damn streets, a bad serbian copy of italian-style mafioso with alpha attitude, was trying to raise from sitting outside the coffee shop and come up to me to "fuck me up" - i read his lips while his buddy was holding him put by his arm. there was an enormous amount of very stupid hatred in his eyes. I mean serbia is not italy, but it is certainly not some god forbidden place where they farm sheep and goats, where everyone is dressed in red and where there an’t no sunshine. It is a place like any of your normal boondocks, and like 9/11 - the news spread quickly here, and i am sure this sob was pissed off by my last post about Djokovic. this is how much freedom i have around the city of belgrade as many city dogs are fully unleashed now. this blog here is my serbian A.L.A.M.O., the stand for the right to live freely and breath the free air. those who let you not find your peace, they are your enemies. i an't going to live up to it, not in this lifetime i am positive about it.
i was thinking a lot about what goes on in serbian minds and i figured that if i was not complaining at all, in other words if i was enduring torture stoically as the scapegoat, people of serbia would not continue doing it. they are only continuing as they see that it really, really bothers me. i am fighting back by writing and they would like to annihilate me for that sole reason.
they think they are on top as the sinless - the chosen ones. this is why i am sure that many people in serbia are not gentle by nature and that their god that leads them is false god, not the God of Christian and brotherly love but the antichrist who favors oppression, anarchy and communism.

 after i had been harmed many thousand times (3/7/2003 - 7/10/2016 = 4875 days x 3 average times of hurt per day in this sea of hurt = approx. total of 14625 hurts), i tried letting my guard down many thousand times, to give and lay a new hope into the human race but they came down on me like hyenas more arrogant and much harder each following time with no holds barred. so every time i was defeated and back at the square one. i really sound like a sissy now, but it is the way it is. there is no point of begging for freedom and justice, i an't the freedom beggar. 

people living in serbia have been getting my sorry ass by the balls for so long and what goes on? they behave as if they are natural born aggressors, their aggression never stops. so many of them against one person! is it called the cowardly acts?! they behave as if i was not the innocent victim of their crimes against individual human rights but some culprit convicted of horrendous crimes who needs to suffer on daily basis, a multiple killer at least. bloody damn merciless people comparable to ISIS. these are the terrible people who do not allow you to heal your wounds. same old goes on every day, even though i keep posting: please, please let go of me. in response there is no remorse, no mercy whatsoever from the same people that were into this harassment since 2003. that is some serious monstrosity and for me this place is fucking hell mate - where you can easily feel that you are going mental - it is not a problem at all! if God does not strike them with furious anger and serious vengeance the things will never change here. that is why I believe there is no way Novak Djokovic is not an Angel. no freaking way!!!! the guy let Murray win British Open in 2013. Djokovic is a humane person. an't no issue - without a doubt Novak threw it. i know because i cried even though i lost some good money with the bookies then. he is the paragon of virtue, gentleness, angelic quality, there is no way his genetics is the same ISIS-like genetics as in the guys oppressing me. this i can smell. and i am sure he is not pretending. his very noble existence is messing up my present reality, he should have been italian or cypriot or french, he stands out much from where am i at - where it is so low i cannot see nothing. where there is hardly anybody to sincerely accept you; where the madness has achieved its acme. the problem is serbs adore even criminals if they have piles of money even those who dealt drugs but are so easy to oppress those aegis-less john does - who stand out from the crowd - who did nothing to them like me. that is a huge problem for me and my understanding of personal freedoms and human rights. it devastates me. I do not know how but the guy [Nole Djokovic] seems to be helping me to believe there is a much better world (way too) out there where freedom can be felt in the air. he is that [s]tool that raises you so you can get a glimpse of the horizon. just his existence, doing nothing and so far away, alleviates the doomed existence. Nobel Prize. Pls.