Noah Feldman

First of all, Im an artist and Im sensitive as shit! this morning did not start well for me for Gxd let me witness the mismatched suit on the Harvard Law professor that appeared on CNN. I tried to listen to his drift, the man appeared smart, his thought flow was as quick as a greased lightning, but with those striking poop hues on his pants and socks he could have gotten away with saying just about anything, he kept repeating himself on some key points. further, a dimple did not look good on the sacred blue tie. hate it when people put a glaring crease in the blue if the Earth is not shaking nor roaring. any other color would have been okay, red for example.  

on the other side of the globe, I mean in Belgrade, Serbia, when I walk the streets - people take note. truth of the matter is I am all a deer in the headlights while passing by 30 unknown people sitting around. only recently I have seen myself walking on video. it did not look good. it appears in 40 some years I have not learned to walk as a regular man, and so I attract much attention. I was entirely unaware of this problem as I always imagined myself in the best light. I always ideated myself appearing as a two-star general not exactly as the raggedy-ass backwoods militiaman. namely, a few weeks ago, I was passing by a Kalenic restaurant table positioned on the sidewalk when I overheard a famous jazz bugler jovan maljokovic in the company of some old farts stating:

look at this slouch, he cannot connect two [steps] together.

it did not rattle me. Maljokovic does not know that we all were hacked up at the LBH. that some were spared was 19th century PR myth polishing. 143 years and 4 months later I still did not connect myself. living in Serbia makes you prepared for the worst comments, it is not a respectful environment. in order to deal with anything successfully you got to be prepared for everything. in some countries, disability will not be an insurmountable obstacle, like in the UK, an example was Stephen Hawking. here in Serbia, the differences are simplified, there are two sides. and I am on the side that does not have power nor money. if I had one or both, the public image would have been cleaned. and the likes of maljokovic would have kept their mouths shut.