belgrade (serbia), july 2022, experience ...

i think i am in a special mood these days, probably in love,
i do not know, and esp. since i am a triple or may be even a four time cancer in horoscope; i am more prone to hurt and sensations than anyone else in this time of the year. this morning as i was waiting in line to pay for groceries at maxi supermarket on autokomanda square, an unknown to me  serbian man in the line in front of me got itchy in my presence obviously trying to figure out how to unnerve me and inflict some pain and there he went spotting an ice cream box and when i was not looking, i did not know what he was going to do, he had to slam its lid so my ear hurts even half an hour after. i bet that made his day as my exposure here and green light for public torture and bullying are something that not so many individuals would survive for more than a week let alone years. when you realize that you have so many enemies in one land that has no more than five million people, it is soul crushing. it is the Man above who directs who are you going to meet in this lifetime, and obviously he is letting me come across the worst kind of Serbs without any simplest sense whatsoever. i do not feel that Im on any mission here unless it is called temptation. i have not even met that partner for living as yet and only occasionally i come across kind and true Serbs that sometimes bring a light into this tunnel and mess or better yet this outer office to hell.