destroy them.

    while trying to find an ounce of rational logic, i often think of myself as being Custer in one of my reincarnations, and all of them Indians from LBH having been reincarnated in the form of my Serbian countrymen bothering and mutilating me alive. i am saying some, several thousand, not all Serbs, so savage and brutal, deserving a revanche still ... all along this blog post is the scream of utter helplessness ... living the life of betrayal everywhere ... paradox also reflected in Dostoevsky's read the Grand Inquisitor whereby people do not deserve choices nor freedom in return for the ultimate security.

    may 23^RD 2022: in serbia many unknown wicked individuals that know who Im (they know that better than i do) take my kindness and goodness for weakness and I have found out it has been one of my major problems ever since I came to this country. entirely unprovoked some of them want a blood of me, so I came to conclusion that, in order to keep your hands and consciousnesses clean, the only way to deal with these unknown bastards is to prey for their destruction, as well as the destruction of their families and friends as we have seen that evil tends to progress if mister nice guy keeps turning the other cheek ...

    this evening I came to parobrod in Belgrade, Serbia to a book signing event to get some signatures … the author [ Katalin Ladik ] recognized me and smiled when she saw me but I was nervous as my car was parked on the spot reserved for some embassy and there was a chance it could have got towed. so musing about towing fines i handed her CD-ROM i had promised earlier and waited to be the last one with several things to get signed, much more than the others. then as the waiting line was thinning out something happened with a huge loudspeaker that was nearby as the tone technician jerked the input jack out from the mixer while the volume was on unleashing thus a huge pinging sound … I make music and before I entered faculty I was certified as audio, video and radio technician so to me it sounded like he did it on purpose … lo and behold, when I was left alone at the signing table collecting and packing my stuff as the event editor invited author to the back of the room, this serbian idiot maxed out the volume and repeated the same thing into my ear nearly deafening me as the bang went straight through my head and exited on top of it. there is nothing to do but to wish this feral swine a complete annihilation of his entire family and all of his friends as the experience is telling good guys always finish last. honest to Goodness, cannot be the good guy no more as some local people have been running my goodness into the ground. this hit was entirely unprovoked while I guess the motifs must be jealousy and greed as I am well known in this country – and some walks of life think they are much smarter and I have it easy. the hatred coming from them is indescribable as I do not personally know any of these haters. I wish karma does its job before the things happen and destroys all evil people whoever and wherever they are before they make any damage whatsoever. when I am finally left alone with a peace of mind I will know that Gxd did his job of protecting me … we will see if it will ever happen, but the consequences that Serbia already left on my body and mind will be irreversible. they are still so.

    prior to this evening’s event on may 20^th, 2022, i went to art signing event in novi sad featuring this same author and things happened there as well … I realized that when I was driving home listening to radio station I overheard someone on air talking about me in the most slandering manner making nasty comments related to my guest assignment at that show; which are so low that i cannot go that low in order to describe them. the united states promised I won’t be bothered in Serbia and would start off brand new. it has been impossible living among the most damned bastards on this planet without any sense for normalcy. 20 years flew by just like that and I am only at the square one, just 20 years older. the united states broke their promise. I know it is not their fault as they cannot control serbia, a hefty number of unprovoked individuals that won’t leave me alone making my life miserable day in and day out. what is their problem ? and what goes on if I am so unimportant, as those that do not want to be informed will say,  why do they care to bother me. there must be something going on. we know there is - their actions are directed and causing a slow mayhem. I hope there is only jealousy and greed behind it, nothing more … we are going to prey softly and require divine punishment greater than the offense – lost time is the future lost – and equal in kind will not do the justice – whoever unprovoked draws the first blood must die and feel the tremendous pain, amen to that! amen! amen! amen! the newly shaped wild horde mu st be destroyed