dissatisfied with role assignment.

obviously, some kind of jealousy is taking place on the part of the serbian rulers perhaps envious of my efforts or knowledge [it cannot be bought] … serbia has around 6 million citizens almost the same as the city of philadelphia … and if my life was solely dependent on the folks in philly I would not have been able to make it in the states for all of my links were hailing from elsewhere … in other words one more proof you cannot become the prophet in your own neighborhood …

in recent years serbian government or whatever foreign entity controls it – has been trying to assign me the role of a small-time crook which of course bears image undermining condition with it … no pun intended – instead – I wanna be the big crook like them … a lot of sharks out here - live large - with big houses - numerous cars - they're in charge … to sum it up, instead of going after the top guns [themselves] they are preferring to make public enemies out of a little guy like me.

Im afraid I an’t too far off the role of Patrick Swayze in gladiator, the movie I watched with a Greek transgender [a girlfriend I have been dating for three years not knowing a thing] in valley forge’s movie theater after I had been cornered here in Serbia – where two guys are running the place and a show with multitude of bootlickers around and behind them …

you know what kind of twilight if not darkness is enforced in serbia by those playing the roles of serbian patriots [depending on the viewer’s angle] when I am afraid to simply say out loud the names of those leaders that are bothering me for plain fear they will liquidate me by sending crazed out stooges they keep around for handling the dirty work … furthermore, some people are openly spying on me as I get words of support from friends saying do not pay attention to what is going on … they are trying to single me out, vilify and crucify me in the country that thrives on crime, where mobsters are celebrated by the masses … come and witness what some politicians now in power are driving coming straight out from the communist era … we are talking couple of decades ago … the investigating journalists are talking about billions stashed out somewhere … meanwhile, they are swooping down on me trying to put a smoke up a public ass by finding scapegoats they have been preparing for hard times … when the goings get tough … and now it seems those times have come … they have even instigated public transportation drivers to punish their vehicles when passing by me in order to supposedly demonstrate power of the place - a country run by one or two guys … things are literally falling off my hands when those evil eyes are looking at me from hiding places or when they are sneaking around in public [e.g. supermarkets] making man-made noises … all the while, watching curiously, trying to gather their "material" to snitch out stories to the two big bosses in the serbian government …  who are calling out shots on what is going to happen … but there is nothing to tell ... it is a shame for time wasted here where government agents – and who else, as if the normal people'd be doing that - are coming at you with hands crossed as if tied signaling that I better be afraid waiting for the dawn that won’t come … they are playing mind games with you in godforsaken Serbian bedlam for they are completely off their rocker …