shame

P.S.: i need to be direct and assertive so no one can copycat my writings ... they would not have that courage

P.S.S.: 3/7/22; they do not accept criticism in serbia . the things are starting to get uglier by the day. 

I had to pull this one out as they are at it again all up and down Serbia. well, once village dogs - metaphorically speaking [Im talking about a number of demonized known and unknown individuals] draw blood they are coming back for more. so here is presentation of actual events …

Great Force sent me to serbia where I was starting fresh … with clean record.

not so fast ... I was clean in the United States as well but the radical issues were raised with some Serbian 'Stasi' members [to this day Serbian Stasi as I call it was never formally disbanded] who led the serbian community in Philadelphia that gave me a hostile mud-bath. my fault - I was going to Serbian church that gave me an anti-Christian reputation and rap … so the reason behind this could have been offensive karma or additionally something entirely different like a divine project set up in Heavens, something resembling the late 18^th century times in the US; let’s say, if it was a temptation test for the Serbs and/or the United States we will never know but Im happy that I played a part in it … alas, they found me a murder, [like] I killed an American judge, two officers dead and another one wounded … so with such crime record it is impossible to return there. now … just like in trading places movie, the GF wanted to see what would happen with me when I came back to Serbia, the country whose fascination with murderers and crime figures has no parallel match on this planet. how would those - I would be coming across -  treat me ...

and thus, lo and behold, the hostile individuals in Serbia were not tricked by that brutal rap sheet as they recognized something innocent about me and started dragging my mind, spirit and soul through the mud as of the day one. the unfair brain-raping began as the local sleazeballs wanted to make a point that they can touch me since MC Hammer was not near and difficult to reach … even the lowest of the low got their chance to make use of their booger pullers. snake smart but evil serbian mob too ... Serbian society and Serbs of all kinds, all nationalities. a few even got pretty physical on occasions for no real reason at all. all reasons were made up in Serbian dirty minds. all those coming at me behaved as if they all envisioned the same power tripping memes, me being a fragile Piper Perri and them being heavy set muscular black men surrounding me. ready to get some action. this still goes on, the writing takes my fears away. they got their target and targeting approved. by whom would be one great question. perhaps Serbian enemies and those that wanted to portray Serbs as the only villains of the world put on more smoke up the ordinary Serbian ass. so now they are paying for it as the Great Force is merciless towards the tyrants and bloodthirsty ones … many years passing down the line, if i was the agent thrown into the pits to test the Serbian liberties as well as the state of its democracy, I can voice out that reenactment of AR in Serbia is impossible as the guys I had been coming across, spare a few, karmic-wise and in spirit do not correlate with the greats and ordinary souls of the Valley Forge and the greatest time in the history of mankind … we have not recognized each other so this mission failed, it took way too long to conclude the obvious. the majority of Serbs will never be nor will they ever behave like Americans, they are two different animals, period, and whose money would you rather want remains the only unknown. supposed that there was some choice to be made [choosing between good luck and bad luck; Heaven versus hell; dollar versus dinar; French boyfriend / girlfriend or American boyfriend / girlfriend] it would have been foolproof.

that's a shame to set your sights on someone that has nothing to do with you and be brave about harassing and troubling an innocent man that you do not know …  something huge and humane, a stage, is collapsing behind me as I have to go thru this. there are bloated bodies lying everywhere. the future is so bright and deadly. imagine the stay of the bodies in the Ukrainian Sun and the heat. the skulls with bullet holes in them, casings everywhere … the stench is so horrible. the best you can do is kick dirt on the dead to cover them up. I do not even have chance to try to escape Serbia and run down towards the river to keep hydrating my basic rights and freedoms … there is a good chance some of them Serbs would run with me in the pitch-black dark of the Serbian night … I call it innocent man crucified, the evil ones call it a Serbian Dream or may be a nightmare. who knows who the survivors will even be ... wash it