Tuesday, August 20, 2019
the entire Novak Djokovic’s city
of belgrade is built on death sites and coagulated karma is a bitch. this
negative vibing must have its source of toxicity. there must be something that
makes this serbian habitat a funnel, a death trap for the free mind. go figure.
i know people like Anderson Cooper would have sealed their fate here. a great
many of evil men are all around you. I did nothing to them but I feel the outpouring
of blame for the NATO attacks against Serbia and there are self-organized bands
of patsies that do vengeful acts upon me. it is a Serbian blood feud imagined, masterminded
and modeled by the government; not the regular civvies that are fascinated by
it as they conveniently use the open go - to vent off on their peer. I cannot share
more details as I was advised by doing that, I give the bloodthirsty ideas to
proceed with their harassment – as serbs are the pastmasters of torment. their narrative
of course - whatever it has been - is shot full of holes but the naïve aggressive
average joes are taking it for granted. the only thing I got on my side is the
mental momentum that pushes me forward automatically, because lies are easily
defeatable, in the victim’s head first. the things they got are persistence, numbers,
absence of logic and that ugly - see through - mind. they are frustrated cos they cannot get their
U.S. generals and Im the easy target to blame and deal with. any local who
would try to defend me would hand his ass. I am amazed that I cannot get anybody
in America to listen to make these guys much humbled most likely because they
cannot see far fetched movements on the part here; they do not feel it is a tactical
ideological thing, but instead a serbian tribal dog eat dog appetite and small fish to
fry efforts and narrative. or they may be thinking that my say is a smoke
blowing exercise. we are not buying this. indeed, it is not. it’s the stand. I have
suffered this evening a physical consequence which I cannot describe – as
stated – and I can only let you assume and speculate what it was that put me in
duress. with what was going on recently I had all indications that some attacks
would be a go. a number of serbs were told to start making man made noises again
and they did something like flashing cash or throwing money before me as if I was
not going to call them to it. serbian flimflamming narrative has been changing,
now it is about money but used to be many various things allowing for variations.
I wish I had some dough but nevertheless, serbian myth about me will live on
and on. it is not impressive nor exciting but it is working, perfected and
harmful. nothing has been significantly changing in the way I have been suffering
for 17 long serbian years. their hateful model of dealing with the assumed “traitor”
will never fall to pieces. no serb will go through the humiliating walkbacks that
won’t be fun to watch. a street with my name would not sound nice, and I cannot
handle the excuses. so how would they make it up to me at any time in future, as
if I am expecting from the tormentors to make me pleased, not on my life. I was
hoping that by the changing tide someone in America would somehow get the idea
to marry me off – some Quaker friends, say – or at least play with me in
writing, make me feel wanted, I need hugs after all, but looks like I was hopeful
too much, the golden fate has been passing me by; its touches were ephemeral. as a snowflake, the life is fleeting away and it is happening right now. for the moment you
stop, think and ask - is this the rite of passage for becoming one of them,
maybe.
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