Saturday, January 19, 2019
I would not be writing about this if it does not concern my well-being,
otherwise I hate this topic.
National disunity and betrayal have
been symbolized by the serbian coat of arms (4 S turning back onto each other),
disharmony has been plaguing serbian nation since the middle ages. I would not have
been hated by the serbs if I was not serb myself. highly plain-minded like
sheep, many serbs assume rumors promptly which makes them believe anything, and
with respect to me they believe we are not on the same level. they think i am a damn shame and they
are better. at the same time, these same guys are sadomasochistically trying to get into croat’s ass,
not accepting the fact that 100% of croats hate them (the usual croat insult, e pluribus unum, for serbs is - turkish blooded gypsies.) furthermore, my countrymen believe
that if you are stained or tagged you are then bad example for the community
because EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD MUST LIKE US, EVEN OUR ENEMIES. this is the serbian trip and
everlasting fallacy – everybody must like serbs, because we are the best and only,
the most hospitable people on the planet (meant in the submissive, servant way.) thinking about it, did Krist Novoselic of Nirvana (the music band) write song Serve the Servants having the current day Balkan mentality in mind? my problem is – in reference to me, serbs
took part in the creation of evil rumors which are the basis
for general hatred and provocations I experience in public. actually,
the rumors must have been started by the Yugoslav community in Philadelphia, USA
where I lived and in that respect all I am curious about is karmic experience
of people that ruined my life and family there – are they and their families better
off now? they should be because they realized what they wanted to. I assume
they were the Yugoslav government agents working for UDBA secret service pretending
to be the regular church going Americans as it was confirmed to me by Mr. Velja
Abramovic in telephonic conversation. same goes for serbs in serbia - those
that are targeting me. are their lives and well-being better off now for doing it?
let me point out to another fact – if any individual wanted to target any other
individual on this scale – several hundred thousand serbs against only one citizen
of Serbia - would it be possible without the assistance of government agencies?
as a consequence, they are progressively trying to find my bads and the first
thing they always come up with is – what a fool, he did it to himself. now really, if I wanted
to do something like that to me – would it play out on this level and scale? c’mon. be real.
many serbs thus assume I had ashamed the
nation and consequently I am not on par so they even deny my origin. as of this
morning the unknown and superficially known people are provoking me by calling gypsy, the highest insult among the
serbs. for example, many true native gypsies like soccer players Dragan Dzajic
or Sinisa Mihajlovic shun their ancestry for fear of all the negatives this association
comes with in Serbia. as a response with respect to that I feel as if a bunch
of wild sheep has taken it out on me. I think nothing of the people that do not
appreciate fine art, there is nothing to talk about, and as far as the present
feedback from the serbian community is escalating in negative fashion, this
confrontational attitude on the part of many serbs is going to last. in all
honesty, figuring out my present-day countrymen, I’d rather be anything but the
serb, a gypsy or any animal. Yes. it assumes more freedom. and separates you
from hatred and negative attitude that you are experiencing by being close in
spirit.
furthermore, many serbs that are trying
to get to me still consider themselves yugoslavs. but there is Yugoslavia no
more, and nobody wants to be with the serbs in yugoslavia. on the other hand serbian
narcissistic attitude that comes as EVERYBODY IN THE WORLD MUST LIKE US, EVEN OUR ENEMIES
constantly pushes the envelope because many serbs are forcing on their
hospitality by unnaturally extending it to everyone. so it is a fucked up
situation. the natural thing to do would be to extend hospitality to another serb - me. but no. they have other ideas. foreign friends tell me leave Serbia
for good, what are you doing there, time flies by. but I have been starting new
several times already, starting fresh is always a pain in the ass anywhere.
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